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2008-03-19T19:45:00.002+08:00

EXAMS JUST ENDED!!HAHAH!! didnt think I did that well in extention maths though..sigh! Went out with Shirley and Yvonne and Kelley today. Felt kind of weird with Kelley there since she insisted on coming( and i felt like i was back in a girls school) but it turned out better than i expected:)

Grandma taught me a lot of lessons in life yesterday. I guess thats why she was the greatest teacher in her suburb back in China..haha! I guess life is just a path that everyone takes and it really depends on the person whether the path taken is satisfying or not. I have seriously finally realised the real meaning of the importance of studying(though it is a little late..haha but its either now or never)just hope that this feeling of wanting to do well lasts for the whole year because i really do not want to waste another year repeating again.It's demoralizing..sigh! Just went around randomly hopping from one blog to another and I realised how much people have moved on with their lives. I think that the past is really gone now and what lies ahead is a different sort of future. If you ask me to revert back to the old life, I think it would be pretty hard. I guess I had spent the whole of the 1st month and more in Australia still thinking that I was back in Singapore, but now I'm sort of awake and real. Not sure how to describe this feeling, but its a mixture of sadness, regret, and anticipation(in a good way). I used to wake up in the middle of the night missing my bed back in singapore and it would get me thinking of my family, friends, experiences and even the food( you cant find anything sporean in australia..not even durians!) and thus I would tear a little and there goes my beauty sleep. but now, its better:) maybe its called natutal adaptation:) haha! but i'm really starting to enjoy life here and the people around me even though i still really miss everyone back in singapore.it just doesnt seem do hurting inside anymore:)

SO!!! I shall end this little sad thing now!haha! cant wait for tomorrow! going to UNSW to see if my results can be accepted in commerce(pray!) and then it would Cass's party at night( PLEASW NO DANCING!me and Ang would just drown ourselves in soda!) grandma just mentioned that that is gonna be the last night party I'm going until after HSC CRY!!!!! (thanks andrew for my early birthday dress!!even though you will never see this!HAHA!)

i believe you

2008-03-18T19:07:00.002+08:00

Just finished reading a book by a singaporean author Low kay Hwa called I believe You. Touching story, cried a little over it(but I cry in most touching stories and shows) Wont really go into the details and all but it is about romance and it includes NJC:) read it from http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou1.htm however it doesnt have the last few chapters.So me being the curiosity cat did some searching on the net and found the last few chapters of the book!haha!

I Believe You
Chapter 18I tried to kill time by counting my breaths, but it was the dumbest thing to do. I gave up after my hundredth breath.I was waiting at the backstage, looking at plays staged by other classes. One of our buddy classes did very well, causing the entire audience to give a standing ovation at the end of their performance. I wondered if ours would cause such a stir.The wait was finally over. The host announced my class’s name, and the curtain was drawn. AVA crew rushed onto the stage out of nowhere to position the microphones and other props to our desired positions. I was expecting the break to last for more than two minutes, but before I knew it, two AVA members pulled the curtain opened and a round of applause rang across the hall.Johnny said something on the stage, and when I heard a loud “thump”, I took in a long breath and stepped onto the stage. A few people in the audience “oohed” and “aaheed”. I continued strolling forward until I was just in front of Johnny. His eyes were closed.Slowly, I kneeled and held his head.“I want Joanna to be Juliet. J for Joanna.”~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~Everyone sat outside the operating theatre, just like the scenes from those melodramatic Channel 8 drama serials that always showed on TV at nine o’clock.Jacky’s mother sat closest to the door. Our classmates were all close to a vending machine, and me, I was sitting furthest from the door. I had told them to leave me alone, for I knew now words could no longer calm my soul.Memories of Jacky lingered in my mind. I imagined what would happen five hours from now: Would I be dancing with happiness, or would I be crying in depression?Half an hour passed, but it felt like half a century. The lobby was so quiet and scary that nurses dared not walk pass us unless there was a real need to. I unleashed my pack of Marlboro – to the surprise of my classmates – and began to unwrap it. I did not smoke there, of course.Another fifteen minutes passed. I clapped my hands together, for the past seventeen years, I had not believed in the man above us. Now, I closed my eyes and prayed.God, if you’re up there, do me a favour. Just this favour, please.~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~The song played loudly in the background. Someone in the stage was singing along, but her voice sucked, compared to Trademark’s melodic voice. I stared at Johnny’s closed eyes.“Wake up.” I whispered, my voice amplified by my microphone clipped on my collar. “Wake up, wake up, please. I beg you, just wake up. You made so many promises. So many. Don’t die on me, Romeo. Don’t leave me alone here! Please!”Johnny had no response. He was, after all, a professional. I clicked my fingers, and the song played again. Beside me was a glass of chestnut juice that I had drank for more than fifty times during the rehearsals.“Please stay with me. I love you. That’s what you’ve been trying to tell me, isn’t it? I love you…”~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~After an hour passed, I read the messages Jacky sent me again.I’m sorry if I say anything wrong… u will still come for the appointment, won’t you? Let me fetch you on that day, okie? Only you can help yourself. come on, reply a yes… Vent your thoughts to others please… it’s the only way out. Ease your illusions! let me help… You’ve gonna come for it! Only you… yourself can help yourself… Understanding yourself is most important…He said that there was a message coded in it. What message? I read it, again and again. It did not ring a bell until I wrote it down in a piece of paper.Gosh. I dropped the phone and the pen. I dropped my head, and I nearly dropped on the floor myself. Now I knew what he was trying to say after all. It all made so much sense. So much sense!I jumped up and dashed towards the door of the operating room. A few of my classmates caught me by my arms and shoulders. I continued to struggle towards the door, but they held me back.“What’re you doing?!” they demanded.I tried to keep their hands off me but their combined strength was too great for me. So I relaxed and went to my knees. Jacky’s mother was still holding on to a calm expression.I looked at my watch, the watch that Jacky had given me. I kept my feelings in check and went back to my seat, clapping my hands together again.Jacky, you’ll better wake up. I’ve decoded your message. Silly!~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~“Come on, wake up. Everyone wants a happy ending. Wake up, wake up…” My face was now bathed with tears. I could hear a few soft sobs in the audience, followed by a few “wows”. My performance must have been very impressive.I grabbed the cup of chestnut juice. “Poison…” I said, staring at it as if it would change colour. “Poison. What for I live if you’re not around? I live because of you. Now that you’re gone…” I recalled that I should add in some Singlish to inject humour into the play. So I said, “No use liao. I’ll die then!”No one laughed. Instead, I heard more people crying.I gulped down the chestnut water in one smooth feat. Soon after that, I was lying beside Johnny. A few seconds later, Johnny stirred, and slowly I felt him holding my head. I did not concentrate on what he said, for my part was already over. When he screamed, he lied onto my back and he song was played again.“But only love can stayTry again or walk awayBut I believeFor you and meThe sun will shine one daySo I just play my partAnd pray you’ll have a change of heartBut I can’t make you see it throughThat’s something only love can do…”Is there something only love can do? When everything fails, shall I turn to love?~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~I did not pick up my handphone nor did I pick up the piece of paper on the floor. I was rooted to my seat, and when I examined my hand, I realized I was shaking non-stop.When my first teardrop splashed onto the piece of paper, I clutched my hand. At my tenth teardrop, the door opened, and almost everyone stood up except me. I dragged my head up slowly, and stared at the scene in front of me. This was the moment I had been waiting for, yet I suddenly did not feel like knowing the truth.The doctor came out first. There were dark rings around his eyes, as if a victim of lack of sleep. As he talked to Jacky’s mother, he shook his head once. Then Jacky’s mother cupped her face with her hands, and the doctor tapped her shoulder softly.I dropped my head backwards and felt a sharp pain on my skullThe doctor whispered something to her, and then pointed the ward. I was trying to read his lips but he was too fast. Jacky’s mother uncapped her face and stared at the doctor, then shook her head softly, mumbling something. A few minutes later, the doctor pointed to a nurse and walked off.The nurse said something to Jacky’s mother. My classmates all crowded around, their expressions a fusion of fear. I ruffled my hair and snorted aloud.“Jacky.” I whispered, so soft that I wondered if anything came out of my mouth.~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~“Jacky’s not only a classmate, not only a friend. He’s a role model, a leader’s leader, a mediator and the best person I’ve ever seen in my life.” Michael was saying. He put the piece of paper he had been reading into his breast pocket and continued. “I’ve only remember myself crying twice. Once was when I watched the movie Titanic. And the second time…”The audience was so quiet that no one dared to cough. Michael finally squeezed a tear from his left eye, and he muttered softly into the mic, “This is the third time.”~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~When I saw Michael stepping back, plunging onto the nearest seat, I knew it was something really bad.He enveloped his face with his large hands, and when he jerked a few times, I knew he was trying. I confirmed it when drops of water seeped down his wrist. Michael was crying. Jacky’s mother was crying as well. All my classmates started to cry as well.Everyone was crying. I glanced at the piece of paper. Not only had it been dampened, the entire floor beneath me was a pool of tears.Is this how death looks like?~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~“But.” Michael cut in. Most of the girls in the audience were crying, including those in other classes who did not know who Jacky was. “But Jacky once told me, boys shall not cry. We’re born with broader shoulders to let girls cry on our shoulder. So,” he wiped off his tears. Well, he failed. They kept on coming. “Let’s go with Jacky’s advice. This is for you, Jacky.” He smiled, and walked away from the mic.There should have been two hosts, a boy and a girl. But the girl was nowhere to be seen. The boy went to the stage and announced, “Let’s welcome Jacky’s best friend, Joanna, to dedicate a message to Jacky.”A round of weak applause greeted me. I stepped forward to the mic and adjusted it to my height. Then I pulled out a piece of paper from my pocket and stared at it. It was a page long, and I had spent two hours penning it.I started to read it. “Jacky Wu Zhong Xian is a very-” I paused. Then I crushed the paper into a ball and dropped it. Looking at the audience with my earnest eyes, I said, “There was once a matchstick who scratched its head. Then it died.”There was no response from the audience.“That boy didn’t laugh.” I said, pointing to an empty space in the hall. “The guy with glasses and short hair. Yeah, that’s the one. He never laughs!”I closed my eyes. It was too hard. I imagined myself in the audience, showing him an angry look. “Jacky,” I started, my eyes still closed. “Can you please… wake up from your dreams and laugh at my joke? I beg you.”~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~I was still immobilised by the shock when I heard a voice.“You must be Joanna.” I looked up. It was the doctor. Upon a closer examination, I realised he could be less than forty-years-old. I nodded, waiting anxiously for what he was about to say.“Before Mr. Wu went into the operating room, he said these to me: ‘Doctor, I’ve got a stupid rock in my head. Get it out, because I wanna marry a girl call Joanna Fung. Alright? I’ll invite you to our wedding. So you’ll better get this rock out in order to attend our wedding.”’He paused, and then continued, “I’m sorry things turned out this way.”I took in a deep long breath but I did not exhale. My hands were glued to the sides of the chair.“Well, Joanna, I don’t know whether you’re the luckiest, or the most unlucky girl in the world.”I cried, and I forgot when I stopped crying.

I Believe You
Chapter 19The doorbell rang when I was rubbing my grandmother’s leg. I did not feel like going to the door, thinking that it must be some salesman trying to promote a new kind of ‘super’ vacuum cleaner. But grandmother pointed to the door and nodded her head.I got her signal and went to the door. The moment I opened the door, my eyeballs nearly dropped out and I bit my teeth hard. It was Jacky’s mother. She was expressionless, staring at me as if I had just done something wrong.I knew there were only two reasons on why she had come: Either it was good news or bad news about Jacky. Judging from her red eyes, I knew it had to be bad news.“Joanna.” She started and I wondered how she got my address. But I knocked that thought off and concentrated on her. “This is from Jacky.” She passed me a white envelope. “He said if anything happened to him, I must give you this letter.”I felt the letter within my fingers. There was only a single piece of paper in the envelope.“He’s still showing no response. It’s over. If he still doesn’t wake up next week, I’m cutting off the life support.”I stared at the envelope for I dared not look at Jacky’s mother. I closed my eyes and waited for her to say something. But she kept quiet. So I nodded, said goodbye to her and slammed the door shut.“If he still doesn’t wake up next week, I’m cutting off the life support.”Was this the guy who had told me a joke about a matchstick that had scratched his head then died? Was this the guy who had told me that he would always be my sunshine?Was this the guy whom I loved deeply?My grandmother made her way slowly to her room. She was singing some old Chinese song which I did not understand. I jumped onto the sofa, switched on the lamp and tore the envelope gently.Was this guy Jacky?Gosh. My tears came again, and I knew they would keep on falling unless I drifted to oblivion.Dear Joanna,As I am writing this letter, a freezing remorse is washing inside my body. The ward is serene, and only in this quietness can I fill my thoughts on this piece of paper. I regretted so many things yet I can do nothing now. I should have, yet I did not. Joanna, what I wanted to tell you is that I love you.Since the day I first talked to you, I told myself that I must not fall in love with you. As we got closer, I continued to tell myself that I did not love you. I held your hand, I cried when you cried, I smiled when you smiled, but still, I told myself: No, I don’t love you.I must not love you, for I may leave this world anytime. But just now, someone told me something meaningful. I was taking a rest in the park when I saw an old man in his seventies. We chatted, and he said this to me: “In love, either you love, or you don’t.”It was when I remembered the day when I walked you home. A frail old lady, also in her seventies, chatted with me. Somehow, our conversation also ended with this sentence, “In love, either you love or you don’t.”In love, either I love you, or I don’t. Joanna, I had been thinking. I had been trying not to love you, but the fact remains: I love you. I can try to forget you, I can try not to love you, but still, it still boils down to this single sentence: I love you.My message. My SMS messages. I know you have not deleted it. Go decode it.If you’re reading this letter, I must be in a coma. But I just wanted to tell you, Joanna, I just want to tell you how much I love you.Just wait for me if I’m in a coma. I’ll be back. Peel an apple for me; I’ll still be having it. This letter will be my motivation to wake up.Wait for me. Wait for the sunshine. Wait for the clouds to clear. Wait. For. Me.Jacky Wu~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~Someone once said that time would dry the tears. It had been a month, yet my tears kept on dropping whenever I saw him.Jacky had been going on a glucose diet for the past thirty days. I tried talking to him every day, singing to him every week but still, he did not move.Where’re the promises you made to me?If I had one of the abilities of God, I would have chosen to re-live my past, and slowly, tenderly, treasuring every single hour, minute and second with you. Every single moment with you.But it was too late. All too late.I laid my head onto the side of his bed. It had been an exhausting day for me. I had to hand up all my tutorials today and I was going to have a tough economics test the following day. It had been a long while since I had a good night’s sleep.The moment I closed my eyes, I drifted into a deep sleep. In my sleep, I forgot everything and dived into a beautiful dream. I was in a crowded bus. A masculine voice captured my attention.“Hey, hello!”I glanced up, looking for someone. A guy had just boarded the bus, and he was smiling at me. I smiled back instantly, feeling an urge to walk to him. He squeezed past everybody in the bus and stood just beside me.“Hello!”He yelled although he was just beside me. I laughed, but still I said nothing, as if a force was sealing my mouth.“Hello to Joanna!”Somehow, I felt a familiarity in this scene. Even the voice sounded familiar. I took a very deep breath and regained control of myself. I looked around with my tired body and saw myself in the ward.“Hello. Where’s my peeled apple?”The images had just been a dream, but the voices were reality.

I Believe You
Chapter 20I stroked his hand softly, feeling the warmth. This is another dream, isn’t it? The images are so clear: I can feel the beads of sweat on my forehead. There are so many colours. Jacky had just opened his eyes.I heard voices when I was sleeping. I thought the voices were just part of my dream, but the voices in my dream sounded so real, yet the images in it looked so hazy. Now, as I rubbed my eyes, both the voices and images were real. This is definitely not a dream.“Talk to me.” I said, my voice a bit dry.“Hey, hello to my girl, Joanna.” His voice rang again, louder this time. His eyes were half-closed and he was smiling. “Where’s my peeled apple?”I could feel my mouth opening wide and my throat choking with phlegm. I wanted to jump onto him, giving him the hug of his life. But if I really do that, he may plunge back into a coma again.“You idiot.” I whispered, toying with his fingers. “You idiot, do you know your mum was going to let you go if you had decided to wake up tomorrow? Do you know, huh? Why don’t you just go to hell?”Jacky laughed weakly. “I choose my dates carefully.”“You sure do.”“Like, when I was in Secondary One, I chose Candy Tzu as my date. When I was in Secondary Two, I chose Ru Hua. Well, When I was in Secondary Three-”“Not funny.” I cut in.“In Secondary Three, I chose Joanna Fung, and I’ll make her my date forever.”~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~When I first saw my grandmother’s photo in her funeral, I squeezed Jacky’s hand tight. I did not shed any tears. I just stared, and stared, and stared.My grandmother had passed away peacefully two weeks before my A Levels. Initially, when I saw her lying on the sofa, I thought she was just resting. I went forward, wanting to wake her up. It was then I realised she was smiling but her eyes were closed.When I noticed that she was not breathing, I did not call the ambulance instantly. Instead, I paced up and down, and finally, I called Jacky. Until now, the cause of her death is still unknown. It seemed to be of old age.“You’re a strong girl.” Jacky said to me.There were less than ten people attending the funeral, and I felt sad for my grandmother. Still, I did not cry.“Come on, sit down. I’ve got something to tell you.” Jacky said, motioning to a chair. When I settled down, he passed me a packet of drink. “Remember the letter I wrote for you? I asked my mother to pass it to you if I were in a coma.”I nodded.“Well, I did say something about an old lady in your void deck, giving me some advice on love right? That love is either yes, or no. There’re no other excuses.”My heart skipped a beat. My grandmother had told me that before, and Jacky had heard this from some old lady near my void deck.“Your grandmother was the old lady.”Now I really felt like crying. Firstly, my grandmother became my chat mate. Then she became my advisor. And now I discovered she had also contributed to bringing me Jacky.Ironically, Jacky had brought me my grandmother and my grandmother had brought me Jacky.“Now, look here.” Jacky pointed to my left. I turned my head and wheezed. It was the old man in the park at the hospital who had given me the advice of love as well.“What the…”The old man was staring at my grandmother’s coffin with teary eyes. After a while, he said something to himself and went off.“Ours is not the saddest story in the world. There’re so many stories going on. Ours is just one of the many.”

I still havent figured out the hidden message yet, but I do have a gut feeling that it has something to do with Jacky confessing his love to her... so please if anyone does happen to know the message, leave the message on the tag board!!thanks loads!!:D

AHHHHHHHHHHH

2007-12-03T06:05:00.000+08:00

I HAVE SCHOOL AND EXAMS WHILE THE REST OF THE POPULATION IN SPORE HAVE PROM!!!!!!!!! ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!! and its nine in the morning!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T

first day in sch

2007-11-23T16:45:00.000+08:00

i have an english name
its called stephanie 0.0
i just finished my exams
i am studying in australia now
today was my first day in school
I AM TAKING CHINESE AGAIN?!!
I HAVE HOMEWORK :'(
i have EXAMS nxt wk!!!!!!!!!!!
the wind here is huge
i made new friends!!!

ok..

10 things that happened to me though the only nice one is the last one. haha.. right first day of school at oatley snr high. in a nutshell, the first few hours were awful. never felt so sad until that point in time, walking around like some loner without talking to anyone. but hey!!.. theres always a turning point! just at that most sianest point in my life..pretika appeared!haha..she then introduced me to her group of friends and now i have a hangout!yeah! but the atmosphere, ppl, language, behaviour is just so different from singapore. i would say the teachers here are more relaxed and open though they do get pissed when the students get really rowdy. and when i say real rowdy, i mean it. its like they can just argue right smack in the middle of the class or cheer like some madmen, but it was pretty funny in some occasions. had english, physics, chinese and math classes today. english class was pretty horrible because i didnt know any people at that point in time and i wasnt introduced properly because the teacher was a relief teacher, so i shall skip that one(the whole time we were just watching this movie, the truman show which i later learnt it was for my assesment,perfect).physics class was awesome, the teacher was so nice and funny(she called me stephanie which took me some time to realise she was talking to me.. this needs time and its still a little weird.haha). people there were nice and i got to know a funny guy who doest like to wear shoes in class and who always asked the most weirdest questions like who invented the pie(math form not the food)and why is it that flies can remain stationary in a car and whether an elephant would travel around the earth like a satellite if we sent it up(i mean.. which person in the right mind would want to send an elephhant to space right?)yeah.. so it was mostly the guys who talked a lot in class and the girls(5 including me) did the laughing. i guess this is what it means by goofy guys in storybooks right?oh!did i mention that guys like to introduce themselves by standing up and shaking people's hands?i was quite surprised at first.. but hey.. its manners:)yeah.. then it was lunch! so i went to the hangout and ate er.. pasta thing?? oh to describe about the hangout thing, its something like that in nj where each group have their own table or area, but over in aussie, its different. the sort of cool people( those girls with makeup and boyfriends) stay in the canteen and they sort of look at you or stare at you when you walk past them.(as usual like an idiot i was pacing up and down like no body's business in the morning .. they must have thought i was mad!gosh) then there's the round about area up the steps and around the corridoors and down at the locker area and ..well actually everywhere. there was even a smokers area outside where there were the smoker groups!scary!.. did i mention the pond? haha. its far larger than the pool in nj and there are even birds there!i bet i can canoe in it anytime provided there are boats lying around.haha. yeah. pretty lazy to continue.. but yup thats the life of a typical aussie student in her first day in school i guess.. still trying to find my way around but hey.. i am learning:) haha..

2007-07-15T12:55:00.000+08:00

gone on a mugging holiday

nationals:)

2007-07-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

ITS OVER!!!!! thats all i can say now:) no more piaing the ergo alone, no more self training alone, no more worrying about lying to my parents, no more having to go training with the fear that i would lag and be behind everyone, no more having to feel weird again!!!:):) i can be a normal happy person who i was before!!!:):) so many memories both good and bad. so many feelings, pain, thoughts, anger, resentment, gratefullness, happiness... uncountable! i've really learnt a lot these past 2 years. although not all of them were pleasant, i'm grateful for them.:) if you were to say i would not miss canoeing.. haha ..that would be lying. but i really wont miss those fake moments i feel.. the suffocatingness(if there's such a word)..but i would miss it terribly in the months and years to come.canoeing.sounds so damn whao to others..yet when you are actually in it, its far from whoa...its hardwork.. earning every second with heart and soul, sweat and blood. i guess thats a lesson learnt. not everthing you see is what it is actually, everything is from hardwork and effort. hurts like hell.. but its worth it. mr yong's going death valley tomorrow. really wish all the best to him. although i dont mind going there to support if i get to be in an air con vehicle, i really would go. tried to be in his shoes once by going with wei wei to a steam room and jogged around. almost died in 10 min.. he is one tough guy man. although you'll never see this.. but all the way mr yong!:) had a nice chat with bell on the mrt back home today.. yeah. guess its true ba.. but it is really quite sad.although it is considered a team.. sometimes thing are just too much on the surface. so much so that i feel that this whole 2 years was almost wasted. but then again.. sometimes you just cant help it. this is life right? life is never perfect, you just gotta learn to adapt. but no matter what.. this year nationals has taught me a lot. i did my best for you peixin if you might stumble upon this one fine day. i just hope that no matter what, treasure nationals as much as i treasured mine this year:) the feeling is totally within yourself only:)

2007-03-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

hello! havent blogged in like a while:)haha..life is busy man, but i think its gotten more meaningful..dunno..i think i learnt a lot this year. yawn.. but gosh.. damn tiring!haha. march hols more of a training wk than relaxing, but i missed having the muscle aches and everything.haha. so i guess is good ba:).. common test results coming out next wk. really hope i passed everything.sighh.. this yr's gonna be one of a hell to go through with Alevels and Nationals..but hey... not gonna just give up like that.. gonna jian chi dao di:Dhaha!gambateh everyone man:):)

2006-11-28T18:40:00.000+08:00

train mug train mug train.. i am DEAD tired...

2006-11-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

i now know why my blog died in the past 2 years..haha.. kind of lazy to update..so i shant update till i feel like it a turning point of my life.. cos now it isnt.. i am being entrapped under the evil forces of my parents control and i cant do a thing about it.. not saying its bad.. it is VERY bad. cant go regatta tomorrow. cant go penang. cant go train unless i say go sch lesson. cant close my door. cant on my phone. cant go online unless they happen to go walk. cant do a thousand and one gazillion things until god knows when.. COME ON LA! ppl here 17 le la.. not some stupid 7 year old kid who only knows how to count till maybe a hundred.. or a bit more.. i am a LIVING being ya know.. one that has BRAINS you know.. not one who likes being called stupid and dumb all the time.. it sort of like affects the child's mental if you kindly would flip some medical book. GOSH!!! there is seriously no life for me at all except to MUG i am really starting to hate that word to the core now..yeah.. so if i could one day perhaps move away.. it would be a blessing.. though i would miss my mum's cooking. haiz.. i really wanna go regatta tomorrow.. i wanna train with the tean..:( training alone really sux big time..haiz.. team.. if u guys happen to see..haha.. allt he best tomorrow.. really whack all out and give more than anyone else in the boat. no regrets after the race. HEART AND SOUL GO THE DISTANCE! i'll give all my moral supportXD

2006-10-29T20:01:00.000+08:00

B L A N K

2006-10-29T19:52:00.000+08:00

B L A N K

2006-10-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL HAS ENDED!!!..supposed to be a happy occasion.. but sighs.. still got op and chinese... so many thing happened this week!! i shall elaborate..haha

so.. on tuesday first..so um went to meet up with jac and jerrine after training:)haha.. was super tired la.. ended up sitting on the floor waiting for them carrying my bucket..haha.. oh the bucket story. in the end i left it at somerset station there.. outside behind a certain tree..haha. at 1st wanted to go back and get it.. but we all were seriously too tired. went to eat at yoshi and on the way met yueh hsin.. we were like damn SHOCKed to see each other.. shall not scold her again here le cos i did on that day.. but MAN!! she pang sei us to go out with her taiwan friends(hem hem..:)) haha.. yeah.. but it was gd too see her.. then me jac and jerrine decided to shop:).. but ended up shopping for food instead.. we are such pigs..LOL..haha. so we WALKED.. from cine to taka.. then we WALKED frm shop to shop till i could have died.. it is not a good thing to shop after training. it not only kills the legs.. but also gets really mentally tiring..especially when people are quite broke and they see a lot of nice thing they wanna buy..haha. tried on hats shades.. all those that we could without gg to the fitting rooms cos like i said.. we are such lazy pigs..lol. then we went to the heavenly place..basement of taka.. one word..SHIOK!..haha. we were practically drooling over the black chocolates and all the ymmy food there.. so jac got her takoyaki balls, jerrine's was the SUPER nice round choco cake thing with hot black choco that oozes out once u bite it..YUM! and i got my nice um.. choco thing also.. dunno how to describe.. but i wanna go buy the chewy gooey chocolate fudge brownie next time..I DONT CARE!! i must try it before i die..haha LOL. so then went to search for jac's bag and then went kinokunia.. yeah... so the book maniac jac went to buy her bimbo book and the comic maniac jerrine went to look for comic.. so they left the poor me to find a seat in the trecherous hands of the books.(ok lame..XD) but all was well in the end cos i managed to get home still awake..haha but by then i was really dead.. tired until i could have been slpwalking..so ends a great day:)

um wed.. the stupid ocs thing la! (that was the mental before).. but it was really quite fun come to think of it..the place was H U G E! so much for the singapore got limited land.. really envy the guys man.. can come to such a nice place.. almost like resort like that.. and the stuff there are just toally cool la! man!! i love the guns can.. went to try out that qm16 or m16.. dunno what machine gun la.. had to wear this ear plug thing.. but seriously.. it was just damn cool.. i really dont mind going on a battle just to use that gun..when i shoot the gan jue was shuang like anything.. guns rock..haha! the place also v nice.. went to the bunk area and saw the 'model' room..haha. but we accidentally saw this other guy come out from his room..HAHA!! his room was damn good can..lol.. aiya.. i tired le.. damn late already..yawns..

so i shall proceed to thur
last day of school!!! haha played at the student lounge with almost the whole canoeing team..haha!! damn we made noise..lol.. then was land training:) quite hiong la.. the suicides can die.. but i think the worst was the medicine ball.. wanted my legs to say goodbye la.. missed the end of the year party thing..:( so sad man.. but cause i was a nice girl and went out with val jia n wen. yawns.. went over to ps to eat food court-.- but aiya not bad la.. then really crapped all the way till like quite late ba.. and i slp walked home.. great day also.. damn tiring also..

friday.. wahhh.. also damn tiring.. training i shall elaborate later.. met up with farm animals to celbrate joee's bdae:) went to eat at seoul garden.. but pity only 6 of us could make it.. siggghhhsss.. the other 3 the usual.. the brother business.. not free and parents..BLARGH!! but hey joee!! hope u had a DAMN FUN TIME TODAY!!:) i enjoyed cooking food today though i must admit i better eater than cooker..haha.. fine! sloth the "pro" had a nice time showing her sloth skills.. and i had a good time eating 2 and a half hours non stop.. i even skipped my dinner man!! coulnt believe how much i ate.. details go sam blog.. haha i lazyXD.. OH!!! met a LOT of ppl on the way..haha singapore sure is small:) saw jac and her squad mates:):) was really shocked..but damn happyHEEHEE!!! then saw da sao and zhikai.. and da sao boughtblack choco for her mum..i want!!! and saw s19 there also!!haha.. life is quite fun la.. get to have a accidental nj meeting at city hall..LOL..ok.. damn dead now.. super tired..

training today was really quite bad.. especially the debrief.... "i just now beat an nj rower lei.. they are not that strong after all" i will remember this for life.. mr yong's stepping down.. we would not let this go to waste..it will be a very big jiao xun that we would learn and a new beginning of the team. no matter what happens.. we should all stick together as a team.. encourge each other during training, give our 100 per cent and more for every training and to uphold the most important value in the team.. discipline.

2006-10-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

went out with jac and jerrine shopping and eating GREAT food today after training!!hahaha!!! fun man!!! elaborate later.. now pw is taking away my life.. i forsee a late night tonight..sighs... PW SUX MAN!

2006-10-23T20:51:00.000+08:00

wah sei! thought can finally go water training today then up the stupid rain come.. damn pissed.. did land training today till i can die..haha..ok la.. not really can die.. mr yong gonna step down.. this time looks quite serious. haiz.. got a feeling that he is like gonna join soccer gals.. it would be so weird la.. but i dunno.. maybe we would start to appreciate him. he did so much for the team for 10 years.. i guess none of the teachers in nj have committed so much of themselves in their cca ba.. tomorrow gonna go for water train!!!! sounds stupid.. but haha.. cant wait:) havent trained for ages:) and later got ice skating with s21!! yay!!! hope most of them can turn up.. but if not.. it would be nice to have a small grp to chat:) haha.. i forsee a good day tomorrow:)

thought life was gonna suck.. but hey.... i guess i got lucky:).. really would treasure it and not disappoint anyone esp myself again..:) i will change for the better man!

happy belated bdae jie lin:)

2006-10-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JIE LIN!!:) heyy!! really wanna say sorry that i forgot to stay up to msg you happy birthday. i dont care whatever this means to anybody, you are still a great friend of mine:) haha.. been a wonderful time together in the first 3 months.. shared like a gazillion jokes, fun, secrets and laughter together..thanks for always being there whenever i needed you.. thanks for tahaning all my pmses, weirdnes, crappiness,craziness and many more..haha really enjoyed doing stupid things with you together and doing all those mad things that we told each other to do.. thanks for keeping all those things i told you about and for giving me so much advice..haha. and thanks so much for encouraging me during the nationals and in canoeing:) it really motivated meXD.. JC life is super short.. just like that ( snaps finger) almost one year is over.. you wont really have the time to bond as much as in secondary school...but i am really thankful that i came into nj because i met great friends like you( start to tear already anot? so mushy le lei..haha)..i am being serious here..haha..aniwae.. i really hope that this friendship will last till we are old and wobbly and you'll know that you will always have me here whenever you need me :) i so nice rite..lol.. have a blasting belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY XDXD , love always sijing:)

2006-10-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

i knew i should have played less and worked harder. now i am like in a turmoil of fear..gosh! results coming out tomorrow.. i really dunno what would my fate be.. peter thia today told me and mun jie that 3 ppl in our class retained. but that was before the moderation.. i am really scared that i am one of them.. in maths lesson was talking to mark and shengyu.. they were like on super shakey grounds also.. but i realy dont wanna retain.. stupid question.. i mean which person in the right mind would want to retain man? i am so screwed.. i really need a miracle this time.. i have a 50 50 chance.. and i hope that i can get promoted.. if i do.. i would do as many good deeds as i can manage.. that is a promise.. ARGH!!.. i very scared..

pw:)

2006-10-15T15:17:00.000+08:00

technically pw sucks.. but with the yellow ducks HAHA! it rocks man:)having fun time here creating the jigsaw puzzle and all the hands on projects:).. had a blasting week man..super tired every night..and i got no time to watch my meteor gardens( a lot of pl say i damn lag..pl watch 6 years ago le.. i now then watch..haha) and i cant wait to start training next week! fingers crossed..hope my dad allows.sighs..parents can be so unreasonable sometimes.but i shant comlain because they are nice sometimes..haha..well continue with the pw stuff ba.. jia you ducks and all these out there..

2006-10-05T20:15:00.000+08:00

PROMOS ARE OVERRRRRR..... YUPP!!!.. life rocks all over again!!! hahah!!!=D

tired:(

2006-09-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

GOSH! i am really tired:( promos are coming..as in really coming:( i really have no idea what am i gonna do if i retain..i CANNOT RETAIN!! die die also cannot..if i do.. dunno... i'll die ba.. then die again..sighs..

went over to Hwa Chong hostel for the mid autumn festival thing..haha..didnt see wei ye for like AGES!! really missed her senseful talking.. her calmness and crappiness..haha..my dear sitting partner..always there when i never do homework..when i was high.. low and down.. when i was dieing of boredom you told me so many thing i didnt know..and scolded me for my tsunami area..haha.. and helped me to clean up my locker all the time..haha.. been ages since i contacted you.. i'm really sorry that i didnt contact you.. know that you are lazy too haha! but hey.. really had a great time talking to you about everything:) haha.. damn enlightening can.. LOL .. and i am NOT a 15 yr old kid mentally:( i am 17 le!!hahah.. quite grown up le! so you can trust me with things and no need to be mother no 2 le!!haha! saw quite a lot of ppl there:) Kat Amos Simon Jason Pan lin and zhuo jun there..boy.. were they shockeded to see me..haha!! a scholar!!whee!!haha.. get REAL man.. me a scholar..my sis would be able to pass phD now..haha!!

so yeah.. today was just like those any other days with school and mugging..haha! gossipped during lunch with Xavier and Ying Jie..haha!! guys are so KPOs man:) worse than girls...haha!! MUG!!..gosh.. i getting real depressed man..haiz...

i CANT believe it

2006-09-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

me and sam are both the passerbys!!!HAHAHAHAHAH!!! oh man.. it was DAMN friking FUNNY can..LOL..sam's msg " when i saw the tag made by you. i thought it was an older and insightful person.. like some grown-up avid reader.. turns out it was you la. i laughed like mad just now i was in the lib. eh dont tag anymore in his blog k.. i really pity him cos he has the uncertainty of strangers lurking around.LOL i also cant believe his posts too. talk bout ka po man..LOL.. me too ba" HAHA!! gosh! fat sloth sure noes how to type..3 pages long the msg..hahah!!! damn funnie!! passerbies unite man:) ok la.. promise i wun tag his blog unless i feel real cheeky one day..heehee.. must be fate.. 2 ppl tagging a person's blog who didnt noe each other typed but in actual fact both did..lol... confusing..haha!! oh man.. thanks man fat sloth.. u are ONE damn good one..haha! great minds think alike man:) his stories really damn nice tho..LOL.. older insightful person!! HAHA!! nice one.. stupid smug pig in a suit..LOL...

today was FUN! but really really saddening cause i still have to mug:( sighs.. tailed eunice's eye candy with his GF on e whole journey.. reporting every single incident..haha.. i think i might make a really gd detective..LOL.. i miss the UNmugging days man..LOL..

talked with jie lin on the way home today..haha.. i guess things are just like ba.. dunno if you would get to read this.. i guess it is really a no..haha.. but hey.. life doesnt really turn out the way you want it.. even though it may seem wonderful to some people it wont be as wonderful at the next moment.. sometimes things are just not in our control.. you just gotta hang on tight and let the bad moments pass. No matter what happens.. just let nature take it course.. no use running away from the problems. good stuff always come out in the end de..so cheer up and dont think so much:) you always have a great friend here to talk to.heehee! no stress!:)

but to conclude.. i just wanna say that life sucks now with mugging.. so hang on man people! endure through this hard period and fight through it and you will be a mentally tougher person!!:) MUG HARD!

i must be mad!haha

2006-09-10T01:28:00.000+08:00

i cant believe it! i am like still thinking about that past! gosh!!! i really must wake up soon if not this would be another disaster again.. seriously.. sometimes life just sucks.flatly..haha! but i really dont wanna complain because it sucks, but there is still some good out of it:) did another crazy thing today.. pranked called on wei wei's infactuation..haha quite funny really.. dunno what got into me.. must be the chlorine water from the swim this afternoon.LOL. and randomly went to some blog to tag..haha! quite fun to be a passerby.. but the person's entries were really quite cool considering the fact that he could be a potential writer..LOL.. well yeah.. i am staying up late again cause i cannot sleep and must mug.. more breakouts for me i guess..sighs.. break over.. continuing mugging:(

2006-09-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

ran in the rain today!!haha! hope my neighbours didnt think i was mad..LOL.. mugging was not very efficient i guess.. kept on stoning and drifting off.. sloth would know! ARGH!! i hate this! i wish it would stop!.. gosh! and i cant sleep nowadays too.. happened before during a period of Os..stupid mugging stress.. only comes when i want my sleep.. growls..

F.U.N

2006-09-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

Whoever invented mugging is a horrible person. I just spent my entire holiday mugging like a real mugger..gosh! i just hate this word.. i'll just live through it untilt the end of JC then i will scream if i hear that word again.. only 3 more weeks and a bit more till promos.. how scary is that? i am really quite stressed now.. intensive mugging like crap now seems to help a bit.. but i really cant understand a lot of things..:( if not for the teachers.. i think i would have just DIED! had a nice chat with Naraen yesterday.. more of an educational one.. his motto.. get promoted or die trying.. literally too.. i really dont want to be retained.. is is a die die no! but thanks for the encouragement man:) everyone can all do it de! we will all get promoted!!

haha! so about today..i only got one word..F.U.N.. well only at night to be exact..haha! studied like crap until like 4 plus then went out for dinner with jerrine and shaun! Jac coulnt make it cause she was too tired from her east coast park outing..haha! you missed out fun man:( finally today got some excitement in the whole mugging holiday.. went to PS (again) and had subway for dinner..haha! we are such healthy freaksXD.. so i was the early bird for once and then jerrine came.. so we mucked around playing drums and bishi bashi waiting for the king shaun who took damn long with his hair..LOL and i realised that i am not a bad samurai considering the fact that i got to stage 2 on my first attempt!!haha..beat alex man! so yeah.. the king came at last and we got to eat our food then we went to play more drums..( to watch more drums.. for me la..) and so i was there looking at the ever so fast beats going down.. getting more and more sleepy by the minute..haha! then shaun played the 10X song thing which was so fast that i spent the whole time staring at one of the drums trying to see the stick hit it.. which was unsuccessful..so i gave up..haha! not bad la.. but i shant boost your ego so i shant say anything=D Jerrine very good la! ( i think she has been secretly practicing with her cousin..haha) play until damn zai.. i could just sit there and stare..haha! then more samurai..then daytona!!haha!! damn fun! but my car kind of like SPOILED you see.. so the brakes and wheels were like not really working properly.. so i was kind of like last for the everything..but it was really the cars fault.. its max speed was like only 187 while the rest of them were like 250 plus.. so i really had no choice but to use some tactics like swerving here and there to increase my chances to beating them:) not bad really.. considering the fact that my car is spoilt ..haha! well yeah.. then came dessert! YUM!! and.. hahah!! our bombarding of jielin's phone.. quite lame but really fun la.. each of us like bombed her with yeah she said it msges after one sent one msg.. thanks to her toes being hurt.. blah blah..haha..damn fun!! then kind of like lazed around and i got abit high cause was damn tired..LOL.. so me and shaun ran down the up escalator.. and the nice old guy left me to run up the down escalator..which i was deadly embarrassed by a guy who kept staring at me.. but yeah.. damn stupid and lame.. but FUN:)haha!! so um.. jerrine was like saying that we should just go down a down escalator.. which took me a while to get it..i'm telling you.. when ppl tired.. ppl cant take chiminoligy..haha.. so um.. ya.. then all of us ran down the up travelator.. HAHA! that was damn funny cos the guy was really confused. he saw us going down then turned to go up the other travelator then saw it was going down so he was like HUH? then he saw us going down the up travelator and was like HUH? then he went up..HAHA!! seriously!! we were like a bunch of kids la.. no worse than that..haha! crazy and mad! LOL!! guess its from all the mugging man..haha! so jerrine had to go home:( haiz. so we went home.. but crapped a bit at the mrt station where my wallet was hold hostage and we ended up discussing about after promo outings..LOL.. yeah.. but it was great fun today:) a fresh breath from mugging:(:( oh well.. fun's over.. guess its like back to studying for me tomorrow..

10 hrs! intensive all the way!

sighs.. sometimes i just wish that 1st 3 months was forever..

2006-09-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

LOL!! koped this from yan qin's blog..haha kind of got a bit crazy over the tests so did so many..damn fun!! time to mug le!!hahaha!!!..turning into a full time mugger..

Your Birth Month is April

You are trustworthy and highly ethical in all facets of life.
Helpful and steady, you are able to solve any problem.

Your soul reflects: Bliss, playfulness, and curiosity

Your gemstone: Diamond

Your flower: Sweet Pea

Your colors: Yellow and red

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

What's Your Personality Type?

HAHA!! i can be politician.. not a bad idea man..:) worth considering.. imagine.. me the future politician..LOL

Your Element Is Fire

Your passion and emotion are as obvious as the brightest flame.
You make sparks fly, and your passion always has the potential to burst out.

You are exciting and creative - and completely unpredictable.
You sometimes exercise control, and sometimes you let yourself go.

Friends describe you as sensitive, spirited, and compulsive.
Bright and blazing with intensity, you seem mysterious and moody to many.

What's Your Element?

playing with fire is damn fun!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

1st time i take these type of test.. shudders..haha..

You Are 46% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.
Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

HAHA! so cool la! i am not evil:) shall try master the dark side soon..muahaha!!

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.
Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...
But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.
You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

You Should Be A Gemini

What's good about you: witty and energetic, you're simply the most fun to be around

What's bad about you: you're flighty - losing interest in people and projects quickly

In love: you enjoy the "honeymoon phase," but after that it's hard for you to stick around

In friendship, you're: likely to have many groups of friends, with many different interests

Your ideal job: mime, guru, or cartoonist

Your sense of fashion: casual and simple

You like to pig out on: fast food, especially burritos

What Sign Should You Be?

only agree with the food part..haha

2006-09-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

i have been waiting until midnight ok? not just changing the time to midnight lor! Samantha Ow Tsin Hui u'd better be super ultra honoured!!haha! this entire entry is dedicated to you so must be SUPER touched OK??!! haha! i've changed the fonts a bit bigger to aid in your poor visual sight due to being stuck on the tree too long..HAHA! yup! ok big fat sloth-duck-pig-fats-wobbly arm-fat tummy-punching bag.. yeah yeah.. you get the point! so er.. you are one year older now le:) so um.. still must listen to me and do whatever i say cos i am still older than you(notice.. i didnt say bigger WAHAHA!!) so you'll be asking me to dream on ya.. wanna blast you with something! HOPE YOU HAVE A BLASTING SURRUMPTOUS( anyhow use one haha) 17TH BIRTHDAY FAT SLOTH!! you're one of the best friends i've made in my life and i hope that it will forever remain that way and even closer!!( gosh! imagine 50 yrs down the road we still call each other fat sloth and pig with our wrinkly arms and crooked teeth, tottering on our walking sticks LOL!) really hope that you are having fun in JC life even though the life with farm animals was the best HAHA! cant remember how i got to know you but it's the process that matters:)!! really glad that i came to crescent to meet friends like you.. made it worthwhile man! yeah.. thanks for tolerating my nonsense, craziness, pmses and lecturing on my studies, being worse than my mother by nagging me everyday during sec 4 life to study and stop sleeping and talking in class. Thanks for teaching me all those that your brother and sister took pains to teach you( which was a joy to teach me) and being such a duck at times. thanks LOADS for bringing laughter to my life with your stupid expressions and sudden outburst of weirdness (not as much as MIN though..hahah) and for giving me advices when i was low.thanks for organising outings which i was either late from training or coulnt go. Thanks for always been there whenever i call you( except the times when american idol or singapore idol or so u think u can dance or survivor or any other ruddy tv show that glues ur butt on the sofa (haha) comes up).. you were there.. most of the time..haha! and thanks for always encouraging me in canoeing=D and oh ya! thanks for always lending me things cos i always can find anything in your house once you manage to find it that is.lol! yeah! fine you rock can?? hahaha JC life is gonna be quite hectic.. especially during our J2 life..but no matter what happens.. i just wanna tell you that i'll always be here if you want anyone to muck around or just chill! the farm animals will forever be living happily together in our farm LOL where the sun is nice bright and yellow.. with lots of grass and water to keep everyone happy and alive:).. ONCE AGAIN.. hope that you'll have a WONBLASTING 17th birthday and have TONS of fun tomorrow:):)haha!! with loads of love.sijing (fat canoe-.-) always!!!!!!!!

p.s. a picture paints a thousand words.. i think the pictures here are worth millions..haha!

p.p.s. dont tear after reading.. must wail and sob loudly with happiness and being touched to the extreme..LOL(sounds a bit wrong)

p.p.p.s. be nice to sijing:)

p.p.p.p.s.. get off the tree lazy fat sloth!haha!
haha!! nice or not?? i went to dig out for nice pics:).. notice your face samXD

2006-09-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO DDDDDIIIIIIIIEEEEEEE!!! TODAY IS THE MOST HUMILIATING AND WORST DAY EVER!! GOSH!!!!! hope it never happens again..if not i dunno how i am gonna survive:(:(

OMG! i just saw the news!!STEVE IRWIN is dead!!! oh my god!he died from being struck by a stingray... special contribute to him.. hope he died peacefully and hope he rests in peace!! " He died doing what he loved best" http://www.theage.com.au/news/National/Croc-Hunter-Steve-Irwin-died-instantly/2006/09/04/1157222051588.html

may he rest in peace.. he will forever be remembered as the daredevil of Australia, the most adventurous actor in history...

2006-09-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

YELLOW DUCKS CAME OVER MY HOUSE ON FRIDAY!!:)haha.. a bit lag la.. but it was FUN!!! choonie devised a new way to eat corn flakes!! dip it in peanut butter!! YUM!!haha.. and sam and choonie were like singing every bimbo song imaginable in M2M.. me and winni were just like " lets ignore them"..haha.. had loads of fun man!! but no time to type everything.. need to MUG MUG MUG!! JIA YOU EVERY POOR PEOPLE ON THE PLANET WHO NEED TO MUG:):)

2006-08-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

Today was a tiring but super FUN day!! started off with a super lousy day. the rain was heavy like CRAP and my 2nd pair of shoes got wet:(..went to school with my new hair cut :(.. Val was OH MY GAWDing when she saw it.. haha.. cheryl was like.. YOU CUT UR HAIR! looks damn EEE!!(thanks la!haha)..many ppl laughed lor:( they say everytime cut short make my head look bigger and rounder(thanks corrine..haha)..well yeah.. but it was fun cos i managed to wear crescent uniform!!:):)heehee.. teachers day celebration was just like crap can.. missed crescent teachers day A LOT LA!! but it was ok i gues.. give it a C..haha.. sat with s16 ppl though:( dunno why.. but kind of wished that i was in s16 instead of s22.. feel more at ease there with pei jia yien zhiting val and yiwen..haiz.. but oh well.. i had to many things to think of that :)..haha! talked troughout the concert and watched Val transform herself from anderson to lanturn!!haha!! greg said that i looked damn weird in crescent uniform(ask him go die) and said if it was big enough to fit him..lol.. i actually thought he wanted to try crescent uniform and me and val said that ask franklin or joel try anderson and greg try crescent uniform and take picture..haha!.. but he chickened out in the end and wore his sji pe tshirt and bermuda..tsk..haha! then was photo taking and finding teachers time!!haha!!( gosh!! ms lim actually put my tutorial in e card that we gave her!! i am so honoured!!haha) yeah! quite fun la.. would have stayed longer if i didnt need to rush back to crescent.. oh man! must relive every single moment of today!! so many happenings today.. so many eventful moments that i NEVER want to forget!
well yupp! me and amira went back crescent but we MISSED the stop to tanglin mall.. so we had to WALK all the way back to that bus stop to take 111 or 132..haha. it was such a nice cooling day to take a nice stroll!! LOL! so we missed our 111.. then i went back macs to change back to nj uniform cos i told my sis that i wont see her in my crescent uniform.. then on the way across the road.. i suddenly saw zhuo jun!!:) but she said wei ye wont be going school today:(:( was looking forward to seeing her today.. but in the end..oh well..sighs.. so in the end me and amira was even later than sam and simo..those fat pigs ended later than us, but because they were so lucky to be near civilisation and transport thattheir accessiblilty was better than ours..haha! so we went to watch the concert .. well to talk mostly!haha.. not bad sei.. saw a LOT of our batch ppl and my dear mei joyceline being even more cheena by letting her hair down..haha.. wei wei also went! but she looked damn tired and said wanna go home mug 1st!haha MUGGER:)
THEN!!!... when everything ALL ended.. i saw ZAKKIYA and JIA YI!!!!:):):) oh mann..i was so shocked la! kind of stoned there for 2 secs then screamed and ran to hug them:)haha.. suddenly at that point of time, i missed crescent.. i missed being in crescent canoeing, missed having all my juniors, friends around me. We got so excited that we talked at the same time!haha! talked mostly about training stuff and jc life.. they were REALLY shocked that jc life is so different..haha! must not be like me and play all day long k? i'm a bad senior example!..but oh man!! how i missed them, their craziness, their screams, the fun we had together and the pain we suffered together.. crescent canoeing was the stepping stone to my life. but halfway when i talked, i suddely looked down for some reason.. then i saw that i was wearing nj uniform, not crescent uniform. then it suddenly occurred to me that i was now. as in.. i was not in the past, but in the present. i got so caught up when i saw them that i forgot that i was in nj and not crescent. i missed being in crescent canoeing..i dunno how to describe my feeling.. but it was like you suddenly saw your long time best friend after like 20 years.. time seemed to have stopped and your back there again like nothings been changed.. well that was what i felt.. talked to Zak about the sec ones and problems in the team.. gosh.. so many things happened in the past half year.. and jia yi(jia yi cut hair too:)).. oh man!!! JIA YI!!!! havent written to for so long!! really been damn busy these few weeks and months.. really wish that i could have more time to talk to you! i promise i'll do my best to write to you every sunday.. and regarding that issue.. must tell me your conclusion k? choo choo:)
then went to the com lab where me, sam, amira, simo, min,sobana had a blasting time talking to ms shervon and koping her mnms..haha!! it really felt like back in crescent man!! so home!! then we started to take crazy photos!!haha joee!! u missed it all la:( and poor khal coulnt join us cos she had somthing on and didnt feel well. take care kayys!! then FINALLY, we went to cine to eat!!YUM! (on the bus.. min suddenly out of nowhere talked about a small cute hamster..damn diao.. simo was like.. u look in e mirror everyday can see one le lor.. wads so special sbout THAT hamster..) me and sam were like pretending we didnt noe min.. WHAT exactly does she talk with e ppl in her class man la..haha!! so yeah.. we went to cine( where we saw a thousand and one gazillion ppl.. where i saw my sichen JIE.. a LOT of canoe ppl and njcians:)) and where sam met a RELATIVE and her cj and class ppl... where everyone butted into one another!haha.. so we took AGES deciding where to go.. at 1st was subway.. then went like a thousand and one places(i'm sorry.. but i really got damn pissed off.. i just want to decide on one place and STICK to that.. it is never good to go around being fickle on food when i am DAMN hungry).. so in the end we decided to eat at subway.. ok shall fast forward to the damn good part.. so we were all deciding what to do to celebrate sam's bdae cos most probably not all of us would be free during the sept hols to celebrate her birthday.. at first simo was like..lets treat her to boney cake since she likes it so much( my idea..:)) the i was thinking that.. treat birthday cake then will forget the.. so i decided to get her a nice bag since she was like HINTING after we got khal a nice sling bag..haha.. but i really wanted to make it a very good surprise.. so sijing think VERY long.. and only after a few seconds passed by, her power brain did miracles againXD.. so yupp.. since i had not enough money.. simo passed 10 bucks to me.. then we went around looking at bag shops cos i told sam that i was looking for a canoe team sling bag( which was half true.. just that i didnt need one now:)) haha..( oh! by then only left me, joee and sam) yeah..so without her knowing.. i kept on pointing to every single bag.. trying out every design and deliberately holding it up so that fat sloth would have the urge to try it and see how it looks also.. joee even asked to try a backpack to make it less obvious.. but sam being the total blockhead coulnt spot a clue..haha.. she even went to ask "eh.. why you considering every suggestion i make ah??" haha.. seriously sam.. like wad i say.. you'll make a terrible detective!haha!! so in the end it was sam's ehh!! i like this bag! quite boyish but suits me right?that made me decide on that nice brownish grey leather zinc bag..haha!! but i didnt buy iy YET!.. then me, sam, joee went to KFC to slack and talk.. on the way guess who i met?? DAWN!!!!!! HAHAH!!! we are just so fated..LOL!! ( asked her wehere ce jing was..haha.. she said he was at home mugging..while she was mugging in far east with her friend..LOL) then after a while i emptied my shoe bag and said i wanna go toilet.. sam the ham was like..oh ok.. go lor.. so i took e money( plus e money joee pass to me which sam failed to see under the table:)) i went to get the bag.. should have brought a bigger bag lor! but i didnt know i was gonna surprise sam.. quite impromptu cos of my sudden brain wave!!haha.. yeah! so i got the nice sling bag!!:) heehee.. then i went over to dawn and we managed to stuff the whole sling bag plus plastic bag into myever so big shoe bag.. gosh!! we are economical packers la!!haha.. so sam didnt even notice a thing and was busy talking to joee about =D..haha so yup.. then was the HEL of a journey to plaza sing to meet candice for dinner ON FOOT! we walked from cine to far east then from far east to plaza sin ON FOOT!! i could have DIED! i rather run 10 k than to walk la!!so tiring can..haha,.. on the way.. we passed by nice clothes shops then went in to look look and try clothes..ahah DAMN FUN!!.. then i was devising my strategy of how to surprise sam with the bag..haha! and i came up with a BLASTING idea!!:):)// so fast forward agin..yeah! so we FINALLY reached PS!!GOSH!! i could have just really died walking!!haha.. then shop around a bit agin until candice came..okok.. so this is the nice part:) sam went to buy her ever so nice riverside thing.. then i quicky pulled out the sling bag frm my shoe bag and stuffed her onld bag in her new one..haha! it was SOOO funny la!! when sam returned back.. she saw the bag and was like EHHH!! that bag! she thought tat candice got the same bag! but i pointed out that it was her birthday present and that it was for her.. not candice's.. sometimes sam can be such a blockhead!haha.. i was expecting sam to go OMG!! you brought the bag!! but how?? and grinning from ear to ear and whacking me non stop.. i got the whacking non stop part right but oh man.. sam was TOUCHEDED!! YES!!! slothy teared( borrow my sis nick) i was v touched actually.. u cried cos u touched by me.. then i touched cos u cried cos touched by me.. gosh!! touch each other so many times!haha.. throughout the whole dinner sam was like a bit in dreamland with ME AND MY BAG ONLY.. even when i walked to buy waffle she also a bit ME AND MY BAG ONLY..haha so yeah.. HEY SAM!!! HOPE YOU LIKE YOU PRESENT AND HOPE THAT THIS WAS A NICE SURPRISE COS YOU DESERVE IT FOR BEING SUCH A NICE AND CARING FRIEND:):) not being mushy.. just being honest..haha!! i'll write another post for you on your birthday..haha! for now.. thats about it ba:) damn tired.. wanna slp la..haha!
on the mrt.. me and sam encountered another _ guy in which i saved sam by changing places and protected both of us by creating a barrier between him and us by my plastic bag..LOL..haha!! had a really educational talk with sam on the journey..haha.. quotes taken downyou should never be affected by other ppl.. just be the way you are and dont give a damn about what others think or say of you( ok.. i modified it a bit..haha)

i cut hair!!

2006-08-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

I GOT HAIRCUT!!! dunno if it is a good thing or bad thing ..haha. good thing is that i no longer have messy hair that gets stuck in my eyes.. but bad thing is that i look like a boy now.. this ALWAYS happens.. so yea! me, pei jia and yien went to far east to hunt for Vic and Sabu's hair salon.. which we took 45 min to be exact.. searched from level 2 to level 4 la! next time must get the floor correct! i saw more salons that i ever did before man.. kind of deprived..haha! so we FINALLY managed to find this Pointers shop which cost us 14 bucks each for the haircut..yien's one turned out to be almost uncut.. mine..URGH!..pei jia's one was the best though.. she looked like a bunk lor! the person style and wax until she really damn bunk la!haha then in the end we went toilet to undo pei jia's waxing and my 1st time trying out a lot of waxing on my hair thanks to pei jia and yien..lol.. pretty cool.. i had my 1st time trial on pei jia's hair..i think i made it DAMn cool! stood up like spikes! but pei jia say she would never go out with me if she wants someone to style their hair:(..haha but had LOADS of fun man!haha! tomorrow's teachers day! oh man!!!! i cant wait to go back crescent:):) cant wait to see everyone there=Dhaha!

my sis got a TABLET PC!! i am jealous:(

hey big fat lazy sloth.. you ok? so unlike you to be sad lor.. must tell me whats wrong k? dont bottle everything up inside.. i'll always be here de :) (dun puke..not being mushy. =Dhaha!

i believe

2006-08-27T23:13:00.000+08:00

my sis played this song until its like stuck in my head the whole day! but man! i really need to believe!! must believe that i can do it for promos! i am so for DEAD DEADER DEADING DEADEST DEADERER DEADERERING for the promos.. GOSH!!! kind of stressednow.. just occured to me that its only one month to the promos.. one month to determine if i can move on to J2 life.. ARGH!!!!! MUG HARD!!! MUG SMART!!

"I Believe"

Have you ever reached a rainbow's end

And did you find your pot of gold

Ever catch a shooting star

And tell me how high did you soar

Ever felt like you were dreaming

Just to find that you're awake

And the magic that surrounds you

Can lift you up and guide you on your way

[Chorus:]

I can see it in the stars across the sky

Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before

Now I finally realize

You see I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive

And finally, I believe

When you look out in the distance

You see it never was that far

Ohhh No

Heaven knows your existance

And leads you to be everything you are

Ohhh

There's a time for every soul to fly

It's in the eyes of every child

It's the hope, the love that saves the world

And, ohhh, we should never let it go

[Chorus]

I believe in the impossible

If I reach deep within my heart

Overcome any obstacle

Won't let this dream fall apart

See I strive to be the very best

Shine my light for all to see

Cause anything is possible

When you believe yeah

[Chorus]

Ohh Yeah

Love keeps liftin me higher

Liftin me higher

Love keeps liftin me higher

I said love keeps liften

Love keeps liften me

I said Love keeps liften

Love keeps liften me higher

Said love keeps liften me higher

I said love keeps liften me high

i cant find the moon!!

2006-08-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

its in the middle of the night or the starting of the day or whatever you call it.. i'm waiting to see mars beside moon.. only problem is i cant find the ruddy moon! i look through every single window in the house.. but still no moon. and i'm kinda lazy to go out... guess i'll have to depend on my recarnated self to see mars as big as the moon in god knows when..
gosh.. the promos are like coming near! i am SO screwed! SO DEAD! Dad wont allow me to even go for PW meeting in 9 hours time:( so sorry yellow ducks..i will have to MIA again i suppose.
Quite happening la this week apart from the mugging and more mugging. colours night:):)( just realised that the word colours got 7 letters.. like a rainbowXD) oh man.. it was FUN FUN FUN!! haha the food there was WUNDALICIOUS! i would pay 28 bucks again to eat at such a nice place with crystal light some more:) haha.. shall not say much cos i too lazy to type.. but oh man.. i cant wait for next years colours:) haha
(for further details(er.. actual details to be exact:) visit sam's blog for joy's bdae outing.. i shoulnt take her limelight for typing so much XD)

and lastly
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCELINE!!!! 17 is a good year because it is older than 16 and you get to watch NC17 shows( point taken frm the squirribit:)) and in china, 17 is equal to 18. but since you migrated to Singapore:) you are still 17. So be happy because it is younger than 18! haha. but heyy!! just wanted to tell you that i'm really glad to have met you:) (ok .. sam would be looking like a smug pig in a suit cos she intro me a new friend..haha!) the 1st and only badminton outing i went which we played at the soccer area and got bitten by mosquitos:) haha.. but it was fun! you've been a great and crazy friend to me and now that you are one year older, must be more SENSIBLE and MATURED and LESS CHILDISH le ok?? must learn from you jie here cos she is the perfect role model:) love you lots and hope you had a SMASHING birthday:):) sijing(FINE! sampang woman) always <3

stuck throught the ages

2006-08-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

saw Zee's nick on msn..stuck through the ages with bonds cemented by sticky rice and tapioca pudding.. oh man.. i suddenly missed crescent so much! quote from the bonesetters daughter.. gosh! those 2 years of studying the bonestters daughter was like a bliss!! how i miss the crescent environment! the screams and laughters! the friends and memories there... life is so much more packed now.. too packed that there is no time for self reflection and time alone to just enjoy peace and yourself.. remembered that that straight after OBS.. i missed the wild.. missed the feeling of having nature around me.. i went back home and went out.. the noise and the people was seriously too much for me to take. i really wanted OUT! to get out of this place and to go back to Pulau Ubin.. i missed those nights where all of went out to the jetty and just laid there under the stars while Choon taught us about the planets and the constellations. sometimes when life is really at the most depressing time.. i really want to run to the sea and watch the sunset and see the stars come up.. i lost that feeling..almost.. if only west coast park beach opened up.. but still gotta wait till the end of this year:(..haiz..people tell me that music affects the mood.. i agree.. sometimes we just stone there and listen to all the sad songs and feel somehow at our most comfortable..dunno..if you asked me last time.. i would just shrug and say no way.. thats not my type.. but i dont mind them as much now..guess a hectic life does change people..

dead peice of meat

2006-08-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

i got maths test tomorrow and phy spa.. havent study both finish yet..DEAT MEAT LA!!! life is so beautiful man..

MY NEW SKIN!!!!

2006-08-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

Life's a bit boring now.. decided to brighten up my life.. no more black for me:) haha!~ sighs.. mugging day and night all day long, really quite sian la. somemore banned from all water and land trainings.:( i was really damn sad la! me and cheryl will be training ics from next week onwards..IMAGINE! planning trainings that you wont be going.sighs..gonna be hell for me man! but i goota WORK HARD!! must MUG HARD and get promoted.!!! i must prove that i am worth it and that all the trainings that i have missed now are sacrificed worthly cos i will get good results and get promoted!!!!!!!!!!

i got touched by the daddy poem so i used this skin:)

hope its nice:)

fireworksXD

2006-08-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

Celine is so nice!!haha. She gave us her $30 Marche vouchers today cos the expiry date was today and she coulnt make it. So me, val, yiwen, yien being the very unwasteful ppl went to use the voucher. Bu yong bai bu yong ma..haha.. at first was supposed to go watch fireworks today de.. but since like that then we went to eat at Marche! wahh!!.. i tell u man.. the queue was so long la! but it was seriously worth it! the ambeince there was totally WONDERFUL although i didnt notice it until i was full and decided to take a look around..haha.. well yupp.. so we ate and ate and ate.. shall upoad the photos when yien sends it to me.. but oh man!!! it was HEAVENLY BLISS!!haha.. then we had to rush for the fireworks.. but we were a bit too late la.. cos it started already..Abby joined us at that time also.. then we ran along the streets following the fireworks boom and anyhow cross roads shouting , "the sound from there la!!!" haha.. seriously damn fun to run in the night with your bag( plus my DB paddle).. then we saw it! it was like WHAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the fireworks DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN NICE can.. we only got to see those higher ones .. but still.. it was like oh man.. magnificient la!!haha. but it like ended too fast lor..:( then we went to buy drinks and me and Abby being adventurous.. we went to try green tea with soy milk.. tasted ok la.. just that i wont go buy it again next time..haha yawn damn tired.. canoeing OIC tomorrow.. gonna be a hell of a day man..haha

happy birthday singapore!XD

2006-08-09T20:18:00.000+08:00

NATIONAL DAY TODAY!haha..ok. so i went to have my face done today.gosh!i sound so posh..haha.but anyway.. i checked the dictionary for the meaning of facial and it say "beauty treatment for the face" but it should be torture for the face la! damn pain can. the lady was like..ok this would be a very relaxing and cooling experience for you.my foot please! it was cool..the room was like 10 degrees and i was trying to relax if the metal thing wasnt squeezing my skin like oange juice like that! and my face was electricuted 0.0.. the lady said that she'll pass SOME electricity over my face to help dry the pimples and to deflame them.. i got freaked out la! the whole time she used that machine, my whole right leg was twitching(literally !) but being a mentally tough and strong person i didnt shout out at all and endured through the whole thing.yeah.. so now my face is like some monkey's backside which is so friking red and swollen.. i dont want to go school on fri..ARGH!!!

gonna do some back tracking now..haha. yesterday was national day celebrations :). kind of missed crescent national day celebrations. i dunno.. but i guess the crazy feeling was just not THERE yet. i mean.. i felt high at some moments like when we escaped to play floor ball and a bit of basketball..and when me, susu, sze, sabu, bernie,flo went to the basketball court and started to sing our hearts out while e guys played basketball during the singing session..haha.. it must have been our melodious voiced that caused the canoe guys to shoot so many balls.haha.. but on the whole.. dunno.. was damn toned down ba. i think was cause of the class.. there was no class there.. literally also. we just sort of hanged out as canoeing.sighs.. but life's like that :) things are not always in your favour. yeah.. then was the hell training.. 3 and a half of k1 training.. gosh.. that was the 1st time that i felt so stable in a k1 and so controlled. i guess that long distance training really improves balance :)..haha.. then was xs21 outing!! piaed all the way to the ice skating rink at a record breaking time of 45 min! damn fast right?? HEE! so Alex didnt have to cry in the end and i managed to bug Jac into skating with us in her skirt ..haha.. so the damn nice jerrine went all the way home to help me bring jeans so i could skate..haha.. ice skating was DAMN fun!!haha.. some thing i noticed.. jason skated like a gorilla( not i make the comment one de hor.. it was the damn nice shaun:)) Jac skated like a penguin, jerrine was like a duck and shaun skated like a cat..haha.. sijing was like the bestest skater there la can..XD ..alex.. eh.. dun care him! =D.. so we ruled the ice and laughed like crap and had lots of fun!! i really felt damn happy la!!! really a bit highed when i skated damn fast!hee.. so i got a bit jealous cos alex was a damn good skater and he and his friend rocked in their skating while we were like really nooby..but i can skate faster than before..haha.. and i just fell once.. or was it twice.. but better than those ppl who learnt how to turn and kept on showing off in front of other ppl.XDhaha..then after that we went to kfc( but i ate macs:)) and kinda of like talked a bit and had dinner..by then i was really deaded..damn friking tired..haha.. but it was a damn happy day man!!

special message to Alex: YO PUTU!!haha.. dont think u'll see this since you say blogs are a waste of time..haha but happy birthday anyway! and thanks for being the weirdest guy i ever met and bringing so much fun and laughter to our class!! s21 wouldnt have been the same without u XD

2006-08-06T17:49:00.000+08:00

koped this from eileen blog!hahah

01) What is the phone brand? samsung
02) What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number? 830
03) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say? That test and the kinetics mcq exercise 1 to 5(cool!I am a mugger haha)
04) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M? Maggie
05) Who's the last person you rang? Fang Zhou
06) Who was your last missed call from? adeline
07) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D? Darius
08) What does the last message in your inbox say? (Its in chi la..but I’ll use hanyu pinyin..cos I dun have that ruddy chi dic thing.) jiu4 suan4 you2 yi1 tian1 ni2 bu4 li2 wo2, bu4 sms wo2, bu4 zhen1 xi4 wo2 le4, wo2 hai3 shi4 na4 ju4 zu4 fu2 ni2 de4 hua4. ni2 zui4 hao2 hai2 shi4 xiao2 xin1 dian2.(wah lau! Had a damn hard time typing that la..)
09)Who comes up under J? Jaclyn, jane, jas, Jason, jazreel, jean, Jessica, jessleen,ji lao shi, ji rong, jia yi, jian qiao, jie lin, jie lin’s mum(where did that come frm?) , joee, Joanna, Joe, joel, Jonathan, Joy, Joyceline, Joyce, Jun han
10) Go to your Sent Items- empty la
11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S? sam O
12) Who's your network provider? Singtel
13) How many messages are currently in your inbox? 197(whao..didn’t noe got so many haha)
14) What do you have as your background? Spongebob!!
15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R? ray chuan
16) Who do you have on speed dial 3? Dad’s office
17) If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have? Wth is tat??
18) Who's the first person who comes up under C? calvin
19) How many bars of signal do you currently have? 3
20) What do you have as your main ringtone? It vibrates..haha

mugged thewhole day.. beat man.. haha.. think i used up a lot of my brain juices la...ok..shall continue to mug..haha

today_bad>good

2006-08-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

Blog kind of dieded with its owner I guess.. wasn’t a good day for me today. Training was really very bad..capsized 2 times!! 2TIMES! Gosh! I can really go jump building le. The seniors all expect so much from me, and I can STILL capsize after rowing into a bloody k1 for so long.. like what the hell is wrong with me la!!ARGH!! gotta reflect and seriously train harder from now on. I CANNOT tap and CANNOT cap!! Charmaine was right, you must have confidence in yourself, tapping is equals to capping. Don’t be afraid of the boat, control it and not the other way round. I wish time could go back.. let me undo those capsizes.. URGH!!! So friking fustrated with myself.. had recce and flyers distribution today. Was ok ba.. but it was only later during the dinner I was like suddenly so moody.. guess was kind of affected by Cheryl.. she was in quite a bad state.. asked her how she was but she kind of ignored me. I know that she was deep in her thoughts and everything but she was like indirectly venting her fustrations on me by some of her actions.. well that’s what I felt… was quite hurt...then plus all the stupid disappointments of training and friking tired and hungry..oh man.. was a deadly combination la! felt like bashing everything that I saw..ARGH!!!!!!! broods…. Full day mugging session tomorrow..oh man.. nothing is cheering me up these few daysL life sucks big time can.. really BIG!! But I know next week is gonna be a change XD haha..ok.. maybe life not so bad after all..haha

2006-07-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

havent blogged for like ages. Nationals are over now. Nj canoeing managed to defend the titles this year again:). I really got to see the desire and the want of our seniors during the race... cant really describe how i feel.. but i really really really wanna do this for the college for the team for our seniors for us and for everyone who are behind us. i really want to give my best and even more and all out in the Nationals next year. I cant say what exactly went wrong with me and Jas race. But all i know is that both of us pulled our very best and had no regrets. But seeing how much our seniors pushed through the race, i really wanted time to turn back to our semis and have another chance to whack our all out in it. Seeing Meishan and Brigette after the race, how much effort and pain they had gone through to enter the finals.. i really wanted more than anything else to just go and race with them in the finals.i could really feel that fustration and want building up inside me. I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted it more than anything else. But time cant be changed, it can never turn back. the only thing for us to do now is to train ourselves up mentally and physically. We have to train double triple hard to catch up with our seniors fitness and strength.. yawn.. damn tired now =D NCC coming up..hey cheryl lao pok! We can do this ok? i know we trained less than 1 week and everything and i know tht u are really stressed but we can do it k?! must have the faith and the belief that we can do it. We must put up a tough fight no matter what..

and to bernie kor..HAPPY 17 TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BK!! you've always been there for me and i'm really glad to have know you XD but must not be a pig anymore and eat and sleep and shit hor..haha!! love you LOADS always XDXD

2006-07-09T00:15:00.000+08:00

havent blogged for a long time already. So many things have happened for the past few days man.. training was like hell every day.. but nationals are coming soon.. jas.. we can do this ok?! one heart.one soul.one boat. we will get into the finals for the nationals. Our 200 m race set was not bad today. must remember the feeling, the catch and the glide of the boat.oh.. and we had to try this new attire for rainy day.. red and grey long sleeve and pants tight fit.GOSH! we all looked like power rangers la! shall not comment much about it except that i HOPE it will never rain during the nationals.
AND TODAY WAS THE BAND CONCERT!!! ok.. i shall seriously want to murder jielin for my wastage of 18 dollars.. SERIOUSLY! i would rather spend it on food or movies la! all for the sake of you lor! the concert was like.. .. .. u get the point la.. the only time i was interested was when the ppl started to whack on the bins.. damn cool la can.. all the coordination and everything was so COOL! haha.. crapped throughout the whole thing with shaun..then kana scolding frm the guy on the left..sighs.. pay 18 bucks to get scolded.. but jac was like.. i wasted 9 bucks only.. cause she only enjoyed the after intermission..haha.. hilmi was practically stoning through the whole thing.. but it was still fun!! cause we all had lots of crap to talk about!! haha.. but jielin! u owe me BIG time man..yawns.. damn tired haha.. xs21 rocks like mad man XD

2006-07-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

NO MORE EXAMS!!!! AH!!!!!! happy cos no need to study except to dig my ears for listening..not happy cos i probably gonna flunk everything possible. my dear old ms lim has already strangled me and most of the canoeist..so yeah..outcome.MEET PARENTS.sighs.. seriously..i just dont get it.if they set papers SO hard..y waste paper when they know that 99% of the population would probably fail.might as well dont give us tests or set them easier right.. yeah..so now is like the train nonstop period..shall not comment except that i am dying of sleep now..haha..yesterday and today's SDBF i didnt really see.. but was really proud of everyone =D..just continue to jia you for every training. not much time left till nationals..we can DO IT k?? and to jas.. i wanna say that no matter what happens i will pull hard for both of us. I noe that our pairing was really last minute but as long as we pull together as one, not be scared of balance and the tilts.. i believe that we can do it for the nationals. Pull hard for the college, for corrine and me.. we will pull hard for each other. love you alwaysXD

2006-06-29T15:50:00.000+08:00

ok.. koped this from shaun's blog..eh.. whatever its called..haha

Three names you go by:
-sijing
-zhuzhu, pig, xiao zhu(anything related to pigs la..sighs..)
-sampang woman(thanks to china gal)

Three parts of your heritage:
-born in Shanghai
-Australian citizen
-Singaporean gal
complicated story..haha..but i think quite coolXD

Three things that scare you:
-flying cockroaches(actually all insects ba)
-horror movies
-getting retained

Three of your everyday essentials:
-food
-water
-bed

Three things you are wearing now:
-white tee
-blue fbt shorts
-pink slippers(only at home)

Three of your favourite songs at the moment:
-Daniel Powter, Bad Day
-Backstreet Boys, Just Want You to Know
-Simple Plan, Untitled

Three things you want in a relationship(other than love):
-Trust
-comfort
-fun and laughter :)

Three things about the opposite sex that appeals you:
-they are LAME..but funny haha
-they are different from girls
-er.. still got ah??XD

Three of your favourite hobbies:
-CANOEING!!!<3
-sleeping
-stoning in class(but now cannot already :( )

Three things you really want badly now:
-NJ canoeing to get champion for canoeing nationals!
-chi and lit exams to be over
-go out and play!

Three places you want to go on vacation:
-the dead sea(i wanna see if i can stand in the water haha!)
-mars ( maybe in 2050??)
-all the beaches in the world!

Three thing you want to do before you die:
-go bungee jumping
-go on a hot air balloon
-swim with dolphins in the sea

ppl i want see take this quiz:
everyone who read it XDhaha!!
yeah.. thats aboutit la.. quitehard lei this quiz thing haha

My Will

2006-06-25T15:31:00.000+08:00

I believe in planning ahead for the future. So i hearby declare my will. I wish to pass down all my private stash of sweets and chocolates to my dear sister, my properties of markers and pens to Crystal because she seriously need them..damn.. i need to go mug le.

2006-06-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

Training was one of a hell today. It was my second time training with Vivien. We have like so little time left, yet there are like a million things that i still need to do. I always got the feeling that i am a burden to Vivien, pulling her down. She's like the strongest k2 rower, yet our boat is always the slowest. Our balance could not make it, my catch was not effective and my stokes sucked. Throughout the whole training, i was scolded by Vivien. But i just want you to know that like what Mei shan says, i am very honoured to have you scolding me. You have never ever scolded any of your partners before. Today was the first time. I know you were fustrated in the boat. It was a sprint, it was supposed to be smooth sailing with us pushing our best. Yet the boat still tilted and rocked. I was still so unfocused during the race, letting all the minor things distract me. I was really touched that you told me not to take it to heart, but i will. I'll remember all the scolding because it is for my own good. I used to think that i was a burden to you, but now i feel otherwise. I want to pull hard for you and Dawn. I want to pull as hard as you are pulling for me on the boat. Partners should share the pain and sufferings. I know i may not be very strong, but i will have a desire in my rowing now. I will extend my threshold of pain and give my 101% effort. We had a k2 girls meeting today after the training. It was really inspirational and emotional. Joy asked us if the juniors were really pushing to their hardest or were we just setting limits on ourselves. She asked what exactly were our threshold of pain and whether we could really give more than what we are giving now. She gave us the best example of the person who could take the most pain in the team, Shien. Shien fractured her ribcage, yet she still trained as hard and even harder than some of us during trainings. She numbed her body during trainings, didnt bother about the dangers that she could face if she pushed too hard. She went through all the same pain with us during training with a fractured ribcage. All this was for what? She did it for the team. She had the desire and the heart for the team. She trained so hard just to enter the finals so that she could earn a few points for the team, and just for that, she was risking her life. For that i admire her and look up to her. How many of us can be compared to her? Can we really say that we pushed our hardest until the pain was reached? Could we have pushed through this pain? Can our pain we encounter during training be compared with that of hers during and after training? I believe that there is so much more that we can give from within us. It is our belief and desire that would work miracles. We row with our heart and not with the body. The body can work miracles if we believe in the correct things and have the desire to do so. You must have the courage to push through the pain. After all, the pain during the race is only temporary.In order to win the race, you must first beat yourself. If you can beat your mental weakness of the pain during the race, then you can beat your opponents. It is never too late to start and i believe that we should all have a new aspect in us. The burning desire to push the hardest and even harder through our pain. Only in this way can we improve and give our 101% effort. heart and soul.

soccer

2006-06-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

5 hours plus of non stop soccer today! GOSH! My legs ,feet and SHOES are totally DEAD man. I seriously appreciate the sit-on-sofa-in-aircon-room-watch-worldcup. It started out quite fun because everyone was quite blur at everything(being canoeists, it usually involves the paddle and not the ball), so all the kicks turned out quite action. Then it bagan to rain. So my shirt died. Then the field became muddy, so my shoes died. And it turned out a bit more violent than i expected, cause the ball seriously could fly anywhere. So most of us kana the ball here and there on our body. And it was the first time i saw a head ball up so close before..haha really cool man, our seniors have the head of a steel. But after that, everything became quite tiring. Our joints and shins were all aching from the kicks and blocks, it was actually quite mental draining to keep on running around the field for the ball. But hey.. we still did it! and this proves that as long as we can set our heart to anything, we can achieve it..haha.. but i still feel that soccer is just not my thing. i have seriously NO chemistry with that ruddy ball at all and i believe that i should strongly just stick to watching soccer.... Exams coming soon..and i still havent even finished revising my syllabus yet.. GOSH!! i am so screwed!!!! AHHH!!!!...

National Dragon Boat championship

2006-06-17T23:28:00.001+08:00

We lost one tiltle today.
We tried but we didnt try hard enough. It's the first time in so many years.
The junior team really wanted to defend the national dragon boat competition tiltles this year. We wanted to do for our seniors, for the college, for mr yong and for the whole j1 team. it's really not that we didnt push, its just whether we pushed hard enough. But i guess we are just not there yet, we still have a lot to catch up, a lot to learn. Time is precious and we dont have much of that left. Nationals are coming soon, just a mere few weeks from now. After this competition today, mr yong seemed to have lost all the little faith that he had in us. We lacked courage, the courage to fight through together as a team. There was much less team and fighting spirit on the boat today compared with the Mr 500 race. It made a lot of difference when the seniors were there and when there were no seniors.The boat seemed to have lost its connection with the water. There was the glide, but there was no feel of the glide. It was just there for the sake of being there. We pushed hard on the boat, but we pushed as an individual and not as one. We coulnt feel for each other, couldnt feel each stroke, each splash of the paddle as it went into the water. We seemed to be in a world of our own when we were down there in the water. The feeling was weird and silenced. There was an absence of the desire, the urge and want to push together as one and for each other. It was the first time that i felt so drained throughout the whole race. Not the physical drain, but the drain of the absence of team spirit in the boat that forced all of us to pull for the sake of pulling. It was wrong,but there was nothing we could do at that point of time.I never felt so helpless before. We all wanted to do something to help, but somehow it all came out wrong. Each shout of "long pull" and "reach out" lasted only for a few seconds, then there would be coordination problems. It was a race definitely to refect upon. 10 crew boat A heats. A race that i would never forget. Now i finally appreciate what team spirit and unity is about. It is not just about good coordination, its about the feeling of one. Its about the trust we have in each other in the boat, the belief that everyone is doing their best and even better. It is about rowing our hearts out for one another because we know that there are 9 or 19 others together in the same boat with you who are suffering the same pain that you are going through. And because of that, you want to be the one to push the hardest so as to minimise the pain in each one of them, to share the pain and to become stronger altogether. It is this passion and desire that would allow us to achieve what we never thought we could do. One heart. One soul. One team. We have what it takes, so why not put it to use? We have been through all the thick and thin together, suffered the same whackings, went through the same mental and physical trainings, but why was there a lack of this spirit and fel for each other today? i really felt very sad today. Even though the girls won the team trophy, but it was nothing to celebrate because we lost as a team altogether. I know the guys pushed hard, but it was just not there yet. The girls lost because we failed as a team. We are strong individually,but as long as there is a lack of team spirit, we can go no further, there would always be this limitation. I know Mr yong was utterly disappointed in us today. He had the reasons and the rights. He put in so much trust and faith in us by sending down the full junior team to take part in the race. He took the risk and dare, and he lost. I was really sad to see him shout for us during the race, yet we could do nothing to prove to him that we were strong and wiling to fight. We pushed to our limit, but could do no further during the power ins. Mr yong put almost his whole career life into this team. He sacrificed so much for this team and yet we failed him again and again.It is really time for us to refect upon our performances. We are really not up to standard yet, and the nationals are coming soon. This is the time to show Mr yong that it he was correct to put his trust in us. It is the time to show the college,mr yong and our seniors that the juniors have the guts and the strength to have what it takes. We must work very hard from now on, it is still not too late for improvements as long as we put our heart and mind to it. We will show Mr yong that we would be the best junior team ever and that we deserve to be in this team and deserve to have him as our coach and teacher. Junior team, i believe that we can do it. Heart and soul go the distance.

she's the man

2006-06-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

SHE'S THE MAN ROCKS MAN!!!! haha.. went to watch that with bel,dee,jas n sze today. oh man, havent laughed so much in ages la!the show really is damn nice! 5stars!!haha..we went cine to watch the 7 pm show. then on the way met franklin, ying jie n xavier. they damn lag la can.. went frm school to cine ages before us then still can be slower than us to reach there..haha.. then go cine le they didnt watch anything cos da vinci tickets sold out. so they like went home..sheesh..haha..canoeing guys always do the most weirdest thing la..haha.. then all of us budget went to eat at the food court at e basement..seniors girls would be proud of us man..haha we all went to buy that pork noodle and the noodle got big and small sizes de.it was like a "team" thing cos all of us ate the same thing LOL..haha. then we crapped a lot during dinner.. from like the noodles and the origins(dunno who start the) then all the way to babies and their birth then got cats and somthing about the vege, that the stalks are more nutritious..aiya.. you get the point la..haha..then we went to watch the show..OH MAN!!! the whole show got like so many hunks and babes la..RAHH!!! CHANNING TATUM IS SO CUTE!! haha.. dee and sze were like "ARGH!! that guy so cute" throughout the whole show la..haha damn funny la! then jas was like oh my god at almost every scene.. i think she was too uptight about the whole scene(i know the guys are hot but RELAX!!MUAHAHA), she kept biting her nails.. Bel was laughing her head off at all the parts and holding her jacket damn tight..haha.. then we made a LOT of noise man!!! the show was DAMN funny la!!! and a bit mushy cos got all the kissing parts(shudders) ..i know it is supposed to be sweet but URGH.. sorry man.. i just cant take it haha(really must say sorry to jas cos everytime they kiss i like gonna break her arm like tat..haha).. and we learnt that greatness is in everybody!!haha! but really must say, the show is damn sweet haha . sze was commenting on how sweet it was and making that "aww" look.. but CMI la!XDhaha.. should catch it if havent watch yet!! it rocks la!!haha.. and i think CHANNING TATUM is so HOT!XD haha.. eyecandy la!(gosh.. the j1 canoe gals are overwhelmed by the guys in the show..lol)

special message to sze min
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZE MIN!! haha you have been one of the most BOOM and action ma ma girl in the team..haha! brought a lot of laughter and fun to the team and i am really glad to be in this J1 girls team!!! Jia you no matter what boat or event you are taking part in the future!! love you always! and hope that today you had a BLASTING and THUNDERING time!!haha!! happy 17th birthday!!!! heart and soul go the distance!! love sijing

Channing Tatum!! so cute la!!haha ..he is like a model born on 26 april 1980!26
this year!! and is 185 m tall!!!

2006-06-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

BALANCE!! FOCUS!! oh man.. nationals coming up in 4 weeks and my balance is still not there yet.. i'm so sorry Dawn..

was sad that you were mad at me today, but i'll jian chi dao di no matter what.

and to all the j1 team..jia you and continue to put in your full effort in training! we can do it again this year!!

i love today!!!!

2006-06-11T01:59:00.000+08:00

Gosh! I seem to be recounting most of the time..haha.. canoeing camp seems like so many thousand years ago even though it just ended on Friday night..haha

7th june
Day 1
Morning training at macritchie.. was quite tiring as it was hard.. but I felt that Corrine and jasmine improved quite a bit.. me and dawn pushed them hard and jasmines’s balance was not bad!!haha keep it up gal! We will encourage each other all the time and push through all the toughness together! Can do it de!! Then was canoe polo for the whole afternoon… that was like one tough training man.. it was circuit training for the girls for the 1st 2 hrs then canoe polo for the nxt.. oh man.. the circuit training was like hell under the blasting sun! we ran for 15 min then stick training then run then simple then run then stick….etc.. I could have died under the sun la.. the only thing that kept me going on was the constant encouragements that the team gave.. everyone was almost in semi consciousness during the last run..but we pushed through again!! Haha.. even though I was like DAMN tired before the canoe polo.. but hey!!we survived man!!haha.. if we can survive the circuit, we can survive the canoe polo.. and my team rocked totally! Me, Debbie, dawn, hui jun and Bernie.. at first we were all like very blur.. Debbie had to shout instructions to us all the time.. then we started to get the hang of it and even got a pattern.. the 2 sprinters were to sprint up 1st.. one to get the ball and the other to be the supporter.. then one of us was to slowly advance so that can defend our goal just in case the other team got the goal first.. then the other 2 would go the two extreme sides so that the sprinters can pass the ball to them if they get it.. then the two extreme ppl can faster go to the other side to attack..this strategy helped a lot in achieving our goals.. and it involved the whole team.. then Debbie also taught us what mr yong said.. if you want to sprint fast and straight on the canoe polo boats, do fast cycles and make sure your strokes are NOT vertical.. so it is like kinda opposite of what you should do on the ts and ks..yeah..haha.. hope this helps next time the juniors do canoe polo.. then we watched men of honour at night.. learnt quite a lot from the movie…it was really touching to see the black guy go against all odds to achieve what he wants no matter how much pain and suffering he has to go through.. I think that as long as you have the desire to do something.. and you have the determination.. u can achieve it

8th june
Day 2

This day was one of the most hiong one in the whole 3 days.. in the morning we went to fort museum place to learn about the japanese occupation.. OH MY GOD!!! It was so horrible la! I read in one of the encounters of a kid that she personally saw a baby being thrown and pierced onto a spear thing that the Japanese held.. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so………. Ohmygawdddddddd.. thanks a lot man Bernie for showing me that…….then was the 3and half hour hike plus run plus jog plus my 6/7 kg sling bag plus rain from the museum to bukit timah hill to mac Ritchie.. shall not say much cause it was the most horrible experience.. my feet died.. my shoulders died.. I feel down the muddy slope, so my right leg died and my bag also.. and I also died from shame cause everyone laughed when I fell… haiz… I was totally stoned man.. really was rock-ing.. shi toing all the time throughout… then I kana shock when reach macritchie cause they pushed forward the sprint sets .. RAH!!!.. but the goodthing was that I gotto take a t1!!!!! Hahah!!! It was SOOOO cool!! T1 really is like stone la.. no matter how much I rock it also was like stone.. but I learnt to appreciate the little thing behind the boat.. I missed the rudder!!especially when I was sprinting behind the t2..!! GOSH!! The back wash!! Now I truly get it when the t1 girls say that the t2 guys backwash is like hell.. I really pei fu u all man.. the direction really can go sengek.. then at the end of the day.. watched hotel Rwanda and true blue.. hotel Rwanda was like one of the best movies I watched man!!so touching!! It was really damn sacrifing la!! seriously! A life to live forothers is a life worth living manXD

9th june
Day 3
Last day of camp… dunno.. but quite sad la.. it was like damn short.. and didn’t really manage to bond with quite a lot of ppl.. but happy cause got really bond with some ppl..haha it was like the most slackest and fun day of the camp..haha..especially at the end of the day.. the whole team gathered at the classroom then we played this describing e ppl and guess game! LOL!! It was really VERY funny! The senior guys were seriously very high man!!haha and we got to noe so many embarrassing stuff about everyone! Gosh! I think canoeing camp really rocked man!! Really sad that it’s gonna be the last time having camp with the seniors though L haiz..

Today was a blasting day also!! Slept all the way until like 11.50 until sam woke me up saying she wanna come over cause her “big sister talk to little kids session” was over XD..haha so I was forced to wake up and wait for her to come.. my sis was just telling me that the last time sam came over I was still asleep and stupid sloth had to scare me in the morning by waking me up to see her duck face LOL..haha.. so we crapped a bit until like 1 plus plus then we left for plaza sin to celebrate sobana’s birthday!! Damn sad man.. only half the gang could make it..haiz..but we had aLOTof fun!!haha.. went over to swensons for lunch! Me and amira shared a chicken baked rice . then sam and sobana shared one too( we are poor ppl u see.. cannot afford one each because we owe the sloth money.. that loan shark..tsk tsk.. ppls bdae still ask them for money HEEHEE!)haha.. we were a bit high by taking a lot of pictureshaha! Then we ordered a topless five.. I started to laugh first cos stupid sloth was like “ er.. ok la.. go topless five!”.. LOL..sounded damn wrong can?!! Haha.then we all laughed like shit for like 5 minutes.. then was really crapping session.. then the bested amira had to go take out her survey and ask me and sobana do! GOSH!! I made a lot of noise man..haha!! u’d better appreciate it amira!! Must feel DAMN honoured that sijing was willing to do your organic survey..hah! then khalilah came over..didn’t see her in AGES man!! Then she ordered a sundae andwe ordered chips.. eh.. the chips kinda like disappeared pretty fast.. or was it just me dreaming??haha!! then it was a rush to our dear old temasek club cause sam wanted to catch the 5 to 6 karaok room..sighs.. but sobana had to leave halfway.. damn sad la can??hope you had a fun time today though!!happy early birthday!!XDXD love you tons!!!HEE!! and guess who we met on the way?? Francine!!!! HAHA small world over here .. well yeah.. so the karaok..yeah.. amira was like DAMN high!! No need mike already la! the voice like some trumpet like that.. so blasting!haha.. not bad la.. sam and I think that her voiceis STRONG! But then the tune like not there yet..so er.. next time I will bring ear plugs and er tone tuner..HAHA.. sam.. eh.. just can say that I didn’t know you could sing..haha.ok la.. I shall be nice la.. your voice can make it only for a monotonous song XDXD and er.. quite smooth and comfy??.. like a duck?? Sounds only nice coming from your pouting lips..haha!(dun kill me la k??) and khal!! WHOOHOO!!my powerwoman! The voice damn nice.. the tone damn nice even though u haf sorethroat!! Haha.. the whole time me and sam were like whao over her singing!hee.. then we highed over many songs.. cant remember the names.. and we were making SO much noise ( I think the sound proofwall cannot make it la) THEN!! Ge came !!(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA) she was wearing the shortsand the class t (AGAIN!) but this time the shorts were orange and not red! (MIN!!!!!!even I tried to dress up nice nice today.. no more fbt and shirt for me today.. but nice shirt and nice pants) haha.. and then ge tried to sing.. MIN!!!! where are you??!! I cant hear you!! XDXD( dun kill me too haha!) all I can say is that eh.. I think min should stick to her blowing instrument instead of voicing..XD even though both require the mouth.HEE..ok la!! I dun be a mean pig.. really had a lot of fun with you there!! haha missed ur whinings and craziness and your childishness!!! RAHH!!!! I wanna play swings AGAIN!!!!oh!! khal said my singing style DAMN cute!! HEE!!!! Er.. sam.. if u happen or bother to read this damn long thing.. dun roll ur eyes XD..haha . wehighed over photo taking in the room and oh man.. after that went to the happyland!(note: for children below 12 years) but who cares?? Haha.. khal discovered the reallycool rocking elephant andhorse..and the best thing is can sit 2 ppl and the rocking is so totally different!!haha!! and I love swings!! But I hate sam’s pushing!!haha.. the whole swing was like rocking like mad la can?!!!..ah!! the post damn long..but haven’t finish yet..

So yup.. now the grand finale..haha.. went to cine to meet up with winni choon yee and Samantha to do pw..at first supposed to meet at 8.. but then change to 7..so ended up winni e only one there cos the rest of us were like 30 min late..but pai sei man.. I was one hour late HEE!! sorry guys!! Went to galilee to eat..and OH MAN!!! I am in LOVE with soccer! It is so cool!!!!haha.. watched the world cup.. England vs Paraguay !! all of us were like so enthu over the world cup la!!haha especiallt choonie.. she was like OH OH OH!! Everytime the ball went near any gaol post.. I was loyal to my England and only supported them!! Haha but choonie samn winni were like supporting the ball!LOL the best thing was that there was a goal in the first 3 minutes and Paraguay scored into their OWN GOAL LA!! damn swei man that guy!! I was like a bit stoneing at that time.. choonie and winni were like talking and only sam was paying attention..but we were all SHOCKEDED!!!the whole galilee roared man!! Literally!!everyone was like whooping and cheering and I was damn pissed with myself..thankfully got replay the goal!!that was like the most exciting part of the match la! that Paraguay guy( shakes head) I bet he was like DAMN FRIKING pissed off withhimself.. defend his goal also can hit the ball into his own gaol..wah lau eh!!!! But England was a bit off today la!! expected them to win like at least 6 goals.. but in the end was one nil.. haiz.. even though they won.. it was not exactly winning la.. but oh man!! Soccer is now my new fav!!haha!! RAH!! I want SCV to watch the world cup!! I wanna watch the finals!!!! AHHH!!!!!! So yeah.. the pw meeting was quite successful!! Haha did quite a lot..oh ya!! Yellow ducks rule man!! Haha.. the England goal keeper, Robinsons wore YELLOW!!!! AHHH!!! And his socks were yellow too!!! Haha!!and there was this player called Crouch!!haha.. me and Samantha laughed over that like crap man!! Gosh!!the England team has so many connections to our yellow “ducks” pw grp man!!haha.. and the bested thing that choonie said today was when we were buying 100 plus.. she said.. “I wonder what this lubricant does.. it say gives tingling sensations(blah blah)” then I was like “ I think u dun wanna think about it” haha OMG!! We yellow “ducks” are so rocking!!haha!! ahh!! The post is like sooooo long!!haha..

canoeing camp!! cant wait!!!!

2006-06-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

canoe camp canoe camp canoe camp!!!! OH MAN!! i am like so excited !! haha.. heck if it is a training camp..i'll put in my best effort no matter what cause the whole team will be there!!YAY!!! and mr yong would be coming back!!haha.. i missed him being always there for us!!haha.. he may be very strict and everythin, but he did everything for the team and for that i admire him and respect him!!haha the leader of the team is coming back!!XDXD.. i just hope that he is satisfied with the team and that the team would not to anything for him to punish us! fingers crossed !! but for now.. I CANT WAIT for CANOE POLO!!! haha.. 7 to 9.. gonna be a blasting tiring fun neverending wonderful days of the june hols haha!!!

shopping!!XDXD

2006-06-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

training yesterday was quite tiring come to think of it.. dawn had to go halfway for her parents function thing.. so she pang sei me to race k1 500 with charmaine.. AH!! my balance!! i keep telling myself that i can do it.. i must not rock the stupid boat.. but once i up cycle i just cant help but to kick hard then..whao.. the boat will like rock here n there.. i HAVE TO MASTER BALANCE! sighs.. damn terrible race la..sighs. the 1000 with dawn was ok only.. i really wanted to catch up with brigette n meishan's boat.. but i guess we are just not there yet.. but we can do it dawn!.. 4.33 min.. we can improve until 4.16 min! must have faith and confidence in ourselves!! and thanks for the socks!! they are damn cute! i like XD and i must say i am really proud of the j1 k2 peeps cause they put up a really tough fight especially in the 500 sprints. GOOD JOB everyone! Only 6 more weeks to the nationals..its gonna be a very tough fight.. but I believe that njc canoeing can do it. we will win the nationals again this year no matter what the odds are because we have done so much in the past 5 months plus and it WILL NOT come to waste. We have trained so hard just for this nationals and we will put up a tough fight no matter what others say. To all the j1 members, I believe in each and everyone of you all.. so never give up during trainings. Continue to persevere and your efforts will pay off one day. Just remember, the whole team will be behind you to give you all their support and we will forever have each other. heart n soul go the distance!

I was really looking forward in meeting up with part of the old gang yesterday after training.. but oh man.. poor khal injured her knee then couldn’t meet up.. then joee was like 4 ppl go again ah?? No point le la.. so in the end the meeting was cancelled.. sighs.. haven’t seen the old gang for ages already le.. I was really damn sad that it was cancelled la.. SAM!!!!! WHY??!!!!.. but thankfully the canoeists all went out to cine for dinner so I didn’t have to eat dinner alone XD.. haha ..but the outing turned out a bit weird..i didn’t really give much thought about it.. but later in the night.. jasmine was telling me that it was a bit weird.. shall say that later..well yeah.. like usual we coulnt decide on what to eat .. there was the usual subway,pastamania, yoshinoya(in which all of us coulnt decide where). In the end everyone split up.. me,cheryl,sze,jas,berny went to eat at subway, dee, flo n meiqi went to eat at yoshi then all the guys went down to the foodcourt to eat..(I guess this was the weird part that jasmine was saying) she was like saying.. we go out together then should accommodate to the majority..its like very weird to split to eat.. I guess maybe she think too much ba.. but hopefully is just nothing really important.. but the dinner was quite funny actually..haha crapped really a lot with everyone..the most funny part was when jas asked me how to be more explosive.. then I turned to sze min and asked how she trained to be more explosive on t1..LOL.. then she said , go lt4 to train explosiveness HAHAHAHA damn funny la! ( canoeist inside joke) we laughed like crazy over that.. then we talked over about the j1 girls team and well you get the point la.. then we saw debbie with tom, sean n kaleb..haha it was damn funny la cause we were laughing Debbie was THE MAN.. and she was saying that she wanted to watch she’s the man..haha. that one was pretty funny… everyone didn’t really stay up late. The guys zaoed first then the girls.. me meiqi n jasmine stayed up in town after that. We went to this hotel and went to the 2nd floor to sit on the sofa to talk. Really stoned for a while.. but after that when we started talking about the team ..we just coulnt stop.it was only until the waitress kept on asking us if we wanted drinks then did we leave.. then went over to starbucks to drink some raspberry milkshake( it was a mistake jas) and talked and talked an talked.. man.. I was dead tired.. then we went home.. yeah.. that’s about it for yesterday.
YAY!!! Today was finally family day! Haven’t gone out with them for ages!! Haha.. went shopping to suntec!!!.. and the worst thing that happened was that there was a human traffic jam on the overhead bridge cos the stupid escalator broke down.. so we ended up smelling ppls sweat while the wonderful cooling sun blared against our eyes.. then we were like UP THERE for a friking long time.. I was DAMN PISSED!!! Then FINALLY the crowd started moving.. I was shockeded to know that there were actually so many ppl living in Singapore.. just a wonder that the bridge didn’t break down also.. well my mood went high high after that cos we bought a lot of things!! Haha shopping is DAMN fun with your parents around you XDXD.. guess that’s all for today.. shopping really kills the feet man..haha I think I lost around 2 kg just by walking and carrying things. Haha=D

so long never update le XD

2006-06-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY COM!! break down for like almost one week!!gosh!! haven't updated in ages..haha getting quite lazy already le.XD. oh man..holidays already.life has been like a blur to me now.. everyday is just mugging and training and going out. RAH!!! i am so tired..the june holidays are like even more busy than school days !!! shall do a bit of flash back now

25 may
er.. ok if i am not wrong it was like the second last day of school..haha damn.. i have short term memory loss..haha. ok.so me shubha and katyln ponned maths and gp and went far east to take neos and eat subway cookies!! WHEE!! damn fun la can.. we were like discussing that we should do this 2 times per term and once per term in j2..haha.. really stressfree. i was having so much fun walking around town without a bag and it was like so relaxed. no more pressure from anything..ohman.. i really wan more of these impromptu outings with the class..haha damn fun de!! me kat n shubha then went to take neos and it was so cool la cos there was nobody there n we hogged the neoprint stall like 30 min..haha laughing our head off and making funnie faces in e mirrors.lol kat was the best at doin tat la.. she was totally juz admiring herself..that ego thing LOL..haha. that day was like BLASTING fun man! I LIKE!!haha

26 may
was it the last day of school?? haha well.. i really cant recall much..but i went for training then we the j1 girls team went out!! oh damn it.. i seriously cannot remember where we went.. if i'm not wrong i think it was at PS AGAIN! we went to the food court..i think.. shucks.. i got serious bad memory..hahabut i just remembered that i laughed a lot XD

27 may
went school for cultural mapping!! haha..me celine and shao jian went around the whole of the coronation area where we walked from 1 until 4 plus with slippers! GOSH!! my feet almost DIED! i really admire those peeps who can shop in town e whole day wearing heels! haha.. so we walked and walked and walked.. got damn jealous of the BIG HUMONGOUSLY GINORMOUShouses.. then saying that we would marry rich guys next time and be tai tai and play majong and gossip aboutppl..lol.. damn FUN!! and i kana chase by like 5 DOGS!!!! thankfully there was such a thing as a gate between me and the dogs, if not i paddle for my life also cannot overtake the dogs.this was thanks to both the super scared of dogs ppl.. celine and shao jian..they just left me there facing this GINORMOUS gate where the bell got camera de..then i press the bell then suddenly 5 HUGE dogs run towards me..wah sei i tell u ah..damn scary la.. my heart like almost stop man..shudders.. haha.. then after that was our so called calss outing without some of our class members..haha.. went to clark quey to eat the dunno wad rice and veg thing..very nice lei actually. must thank chonie for introducing it man..haha then went over to tcc where we drink coffee and talked crap.. then me and celine went off first..haha but in the end we ended up sitting beside the singapore river and talked for like almost 1 n half hour.. oh man i wan more of those talks! its like so cool to sit beside a river in the middle of the night and talk la! damn cool!!haha. then it was really funny cos the rest of the ppl came and saw us then they were like really shocked to see us there..haha. oh.. and i had leg cramps after that XD i think celine did too..haha

28may
sun?? what did i do?? cant remember..haha but i think i mugged and went to west coast park to roller blade with moi sis:)

29 may
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEONARD!! haha.. stupid la.. his hi5 bdae reminder kept on reminding me his bdae..think skinned ..haha.. havent seen the 6D ppl for like years..literally man..haha. must meet up one day..miss ji rong n daph too!!!haha.oh..that day was me corrine and flo's fun day cos we managed to climb the school gate..haha.. went for training in the morning then went back to school.. but we realised that the side gate was closed..so we walked all the way to the other side at the tennis court side..haha then we went to climb over the red gate..flo tried 1st then couldnt.. then i tried n got over when they were still discussing how to climb..muahaha.. it was so funny when flo turned around and was like..sijing how to climb? AH!! u the other side! LOL..haha then corrine tried n got over..then it was flo to determine her fate..haha.. but in the end she got over it..steady man!haha. we highed over that for a while..haha.. then the rest of the day was just mugging and more mugging.. then at night i went over to crystal's hse to talk cos she came back frm camp!! WHEE!! she missed me XDMUAHAHA

30 may
my most mugging day.. finished my differentiation for maths!!haha..and had chem spa..hai..dun even talk about it.. i damn sad over it le..haha.and that day was shaun's operation..scary man.. i never had an operation.. at the most just went to the hospital to plaster my forehead that time the skipping rope banged on my head..haha

31 may
nothing special that day..haha but went blading again!cant wait to go ice skating!!! haha

well yupp.. thats about it i guess..haha now about today..gosh!! was another hectic day for me..haha..went for morning study the after that went to watch da vinci code with sabu vic chryl and sok joo.. then the rest of the j1 went to watch some funny show (4got thename) and stupid xavier went to watch Xmen3 alone..haha!damn funnie when i heard ..haha.. then 5 of us went to take neos..and then i went to meet crystal and her og ppl for dinner at pastamania..gosh! i feel so fat eating so much pasta..and so much for the i wont touch pasta again after the funtasia..haha.. then we went to take neos AGAIN! haha but i met 2 new ppl today.. jamie and andrian..haha was quite fun.. especially with crystal and dot there to feng1 with me haha!!! yawn.. now trying to upload the stupid cutural mapping photosonto the web..why is my com so slow la!!! haiz

i got so many things to look forward to e hols haha!! hope e hols pass slowly!!

-06s22 outing
-06s22 bbq
-canoeing camp nj
-canoeing camp crescent
-animal farm gathering
-celebrate sobana's bdae
-xs21 outing!!!!!!! (hopefully more than 1)
-me n crystals extreme day!!!
-ice skating!!
-shopping with celine
-shopping with crystal and dot!
-aqua outing!!
-meet up with corrine n twin!!
-canoeing impromptu outings!

oh man.. supposed to be my mugging month man..how?? damn damn.. some more great singapore sale coming up.. i wanna go shopping!!

turnover day ba..

2006-05-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

Havent blogged in quite a while already. The past weekend had been hectic and one of the best weekends I ever had.XD. today was the council thing and sports day. I dunno, but it was quite a turnover day for me..haha. started out as a very tiring day because of morning training.running and boxing at the time. Was quite tiring la. then council thing..haha then after that I just ponned every single lesson..well actually pe and physics only XD. Haha..had a really fun time with Corrine and Florence gossiping about everything haha. Oh man, it was like such a zi4 high talk la. me and Corrine were like so HIGH over the subjects .lol.haha then went over to canoe table and me sabu and vic had our usual wed free period gang.poor vic, she was so tired la.. slept like so late at night everyday to pia homework..she was like so sleepy, so we asked her to pon PW and sleep.then me and sabu took turns to take care of her! Haha I think I not bad nurse lei..got potential de haha. And I learnt something new today!! Haha I learnt how to play with fire!!! THANKS LOADS SABU! Haha.. I was like such a quick learner la haha..now I can have fire held in my hands without burning myself HAHA..so pro right?haha..then me and Sabu had a fun time climbing over the railings at the far end of the canteen…haha we were like squeezing ourselves though the gap in the railings then we climbed back up with STYLE! XD damn fun la can..like back in primary school! Man! How I miss recess playing catching!!haha those were the FUN days man. Then me and sabu saw this DAMN cool pair of swords..real ones mind you.. can kill de lor.. just a bit blunt.haha! so we went up to make friends with the ppl holding these swords.they were the Chinese drama ppl and were like practicing for the fri Chinese drama.. so being very nice ppl they lend e 2 swords to me and sabu. MUAHAHA!! Then we had a GREAT time going around threatening ppl and to kill them ..muahahas.well actually we promised to advertise it la.. so I shall keep my promise

Anyone interested in going for the Chinese drama this Friday at 7.30 pm at lt5.. tickets at 5 bucks.. and you might get to play with the damn cool swords at the end of the play!haha

Well yup.. then was the sports day. Shall congratulate our class members for getting third in the 4 by 100 m!!! CONGRATS JASON, PHOEBE, ESTER, NARAEN!!haha really proud of you guys man s22 rawks!! Haha.. then was the long2 team, wen pan, franklin, ce jing, sean. They were damn zai la!! nj canoeing rocks totally la!! the speed was like WHAO!! Joel was like saying next year must continue e long2 team tradition in lignum.. him, franklin, zhi kai n junhan..haha.. must jia you man!! Continue e lignum long2 tradition of 4 by 400 m!!

Well ya.. today was kinda like the turnover day for me.. was really sad to see that almost our whole class ponned the sports day. Only left the guys (surprisingly haha) and a few (really few) gals.. so there was only like less than a quarter of the class there. When we were like doing the cheers and everything. I suddenly thought of xs21. we were a rojak class.. yes.. but we had class spirit. We went for all the antaios house gathering, cheered and had so much fun together.. but now.. there were like only a handful of them and they were like really quiet and in the end I joined with another class to cheer.. I was really sad la.. missed xs21 like crazy la.. especially when they started to play the mass dance songs.. oh man.. I was like ahhhh!!!! Xs21!! Sobs… it reminded me of the dance nite la.. where we all went crazy with dancing.. then we all formed a chain and ran around the whole parade square like crazy.. cutting into everyone’s path and very high and laughed like mad! Then the part when almost all of us went onto the table to dance !! oh man!! Then after that we went over to the oasis to tell ghost stories.. then was the dance again! Mass dance until we were so tired but so FUNNN!!!! Then at the end of the day we cheered our class cheers. Antaio cheers.. man.. I REALLY missed those days… I miss having a really bonded class with so much class spirit. I miss having all the xs21 ppl in nj together in one class.. I miss all our outings.. I miss all the ponning of lectures ,pw and school.. I miss all the fun and laughter.. I miss all those stressfree days.. I miss the feeling of acceptance and home of xs21.. I know I shouldn’t think so much.. a lot of ppl say I think too much.. but I was really sad today that you all never call for me to go..i guess its like those days when it is not it ba… but I really don’t feel as bonded to my class now as xs21.. even though s22 is fun, but I don’t know the ppl there well enough.maybe it is cause my subject combi is like the only 2 in the class and I don’t get to see the whole class all the time except civics, and I am like so packed with training that I can rarely go with you all out… I am just sad that the class is segregated and we don’t have much class spirit… JC life is our last 2 years in a school wearing a uniform.. I really don’t want it to be just a passing 2 years of my life. I really wanna look back one day and think.. yeah! Jc life rocked totally man! And to meet up with our classmates 20 years down the road and have the same fun and laughter together.. I really hope the class can combine together as a whole.. just like xs21.. oh man!! The first 3 months really rocked my life!! I hope that I can really feel for my class like before.. I don’t wanna just leave jc with only deep attachments for canoeing and xs21.. I hope that s22 will have a deep attachment on me too..

So I promised jasmine not to think too much about it..haha.. so I shall again keep my promise..if not I would not get to eat digestives XD haha.. but thanks a lot Corrine, berny, jasmine, meiqi, victoria… you guys really made me feel loads better.. and I promise not to think much about it already.. the most important thing now is to concentrate on studies and canoeing..and I promise I will.. I am cheereded up le!! Thanks gals!! Love u all loads man!!

Just had a debrief of trashing today… had my comments read by the seniors.. they said I die out easily and I need ppl to push me.. so I need to push myself harder. I think my mental strength is not there yet.. I really must push hard from now on.. I cannot give up no matter how tired I am and I must persevere on.. the best news today is that I STILL GET TO ROW WITH DAWN FOR THE NATIONALS!!! I was sooo happy to hear that. A lot of ppl say that we are the luckiest pair in the team.. so I must treasure this luck and not take it for granted.. I must work hard to push not only for myself, but also for dawn!!

I believe that the team can do it. we must push hard together as a team especially the junior girls team.. we have to have the DESIRE and PASSION to go on and to have the COMMITMENT in canoeing.. without these 3 factors, there would be no njc canoeing.. so we cannot give up because mr yong, our teacher and our seniors have not given up on us..so we must jian1 chi2 dao4 di2…heart and soul go the distance!

2 nites out..

2006-05-21T03:36:00.000+08:00

currently blogging in the middle of the night at jaclyn's house.. i think i am going to die of activities la.. so many things have happened over the weekend haha.. the j1 girls impromptu outing, corrines's sleepover, funtasia, me jac shaun jason stay out late nite, jac impromtu sleepover, canoeing cip..oh man.. i am like so going to die la.haha

ok.. 1st things first. the j1 girls impromptu outing to eat at ps on friday nite.. we like finally decided to go out after so long being cooped up in school. then went over to ps to eat at the food court there where shitface intro me to my first bowl of ba chor mee(or something like that) and vic say that i got deprived childhood cause never try all the singapore delicacies..haha.. shall be waiting for her promise to bring me out to the nice places to eat in singapore haha..well so the ppl tat went.. me, vic, sze,jus,sok, qi, berny, n cheryl.haha.. were like talking all sorts of rubbish and gossipping tons.. i think the j1 gals this year very de KPO..haha but i like!!XD.. then the joke of the day.. ah pan..hahaha..gosh.. thnks to sze now that image is like stuck in my brain la..haha. had a wonderful time man.should go out like every 2 wks or something

now is corrine'sleepover..oh man.. that was like once in a lifetime experience for me.. i wanna have a twin too!!!!! haha.. my first impression of cherlyn was.. oh my gosh! she talks EXACTLY like corrine..haha.. especially when corrine went to bathe ,i was like talking to cherlyn ,then i was like talking to corrine like that, just that they looked a little bit different. she was like saying corrine's fav stuff like ,diao and turnoff la.. my goodness.. they are SO alike la!! haha.. and i ADORE their dogs la!! hha..was like so facinated over by brownie(which i called hazelnut) .she was like so cute and kept following me around the whole place la.. hha.. i am a dog person! XD..haha.. then we all like slacked then watch tv and crapped a lot. then it was time to sleep. stupid corrine la.. say cannot talk too much so must sleep..she bunked with her sis then i slept on her bed (cause she say her sis plus her smaller than e BLEH!) haha.. in the end corrine was like wake up at 12 then go down her living room sleep..haha.when cherlyn woke me up.. i thought was corrine la..haha jing dao le! but the twins ROCKED man!!haa. must have another sleepover soon man!!

FUNTASIA!! oh man!! it ROCKED!! and i was so tired after mending the stall for like the whole day.haha.. was really fun man.. but i would not want to touch pasta for a loooong time man..haha.. had enough of pasta for some time already le.XD.. went around mostly to buy food la.. hope next year dun have to have stalls then can go around to play all the games..haha.. then our pasta really sold real well man..haha the first n second batch sold like so fast la.. we even managed to sell the sauce by itelf in the end..so zai! haha.. then we went to celebrate yiwen's bdae at island creamey..haha got her a mud pie and i sinned by sharing one with choon yee..haha.. then i had to make my way ALL the way to PS and i was like damn early..haha

xs21 OUTING!!!! oh man... was really looking forward to the sleepover la.. but pity jerrine's parents n shaun's dun allow sleepover..so i the end me , jac , shaun n jason stayed up until like 4 am in ps .. so i was like the 1st person to reach PS.. then i like roamed every level for like 45 min until jac came. then shaun was like.. oh sijing.. i gonna be late cause of the bbq..ya.. blah blah.. so i thought he would come around 11.. but turned out only 30 min late and jason was LATER!!! gosh.. guy nowadays are so horrible de.haha.. so me and jac the pigs went to stock up on bisquits and ruffles then we went all the way (WALKING) to the pool place to play pool..(and i was carrying a 7 kg bag!).. go there then realise that the place was FULLY booked..haiz.. so we went down to eat a bit and talk rubbish..oh before that me and jac were just commenting on how e guys in xs21.. we were like saying that the gals there are like so much more guy than the guys la XD(hint hint*)..haha then went back to the pool area.. but was STILL booked.. so we had to walk all the way back to PS..ARGH! i wsa like dead tired..lol..haha.. then we kinda like rotted at the burger king talking all sorts of nonsensical things..haha it was damn funny la!! CHEW!!!XDXD apple tree lol.. then we were almost chased out of BK.. so we went mac.. but it was like so the not full la.. then sat outside the dunno where place beside starbucks and played guess wad.. uno..(thanks a lot shaun).. playing the disney princess uno in the middle of the night..i bet we the first few teenegers that would do that in ps at like 1 at am la... then finally switch to bridge..(where i was damn tired!! SLEEP!!) haha.. then we were just saying that jac deal e cards always she very nice deck then the rest like lao sai.. then shaun deal always mine like lao sai.. ten i deal the best cause everyone is like fair n equal.haha..meet the pro..damn! i very sleepy le.. jac the pig is snoring like a pig la..hahaXD oh man.. i am so tired.. well then at 3 we all went home.. shaun in his parants car(damn! his car is nice la.. i jealous) then jason's turn to send me n jac home..haha.oh before that.. i was just telling the cabby must drive faster than shaun de car cos we are better than im!!haha.. and the cabby so cool la.. really drive faster and we surpassed his car!! MUAHAHA!! oh damn.. i tired le.. tomorrow still got cip..!! DIE DIE!! 2 plus hrs of sleep!! i cant take it!! die liao le..haha.. but today ws FUUUNNN!!!!XDXD

i tired le

2006-05-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

I think I like Tuesdays XD. Get to see most of my classmates on Tuesday. Sometimes I kinda like wish I was in a permanent class and not a rojak class like now. But it is kinda fun cause get to know more people! But now I guess everything is just fine. And I just cant wait for funtasisa!! Got so many things happening on Friday sat n sun.. life is gonna get hectic really soon!!haha.. training was cancelled today because all the teachers couldn’t make it. so we stayed back to watch deep blue. Really good show.. taught me a lot about team spirit and never giving up. Rowing seems quite fun..haha..might want to try it someday. Corrine was also saying that one fine day go try out rowing..haha its gonna be harder than u think it is my dear da bian lao gong! Oh man.. I am so tired lately…stress piling up with all the unfinished homework and tests coming up. I just wish I could pon lesson one day. Sleep until noon then wake up to do homework. Hai..but in the end I still have to drag myself to school.. why cant nj have a sleeping period?? I think that would be the most effective period of all..

And my toe still hurts.. stupid me…

my toeee!!!

2006-05-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

Today was such a tiring day.. stoned throughout the lectures and slept through most of them.. oh man.. cant take this any more! I need SLEEP!!!.. managed to like sleep for 50 min today cause of free period.. so suang la! Listened to shao jian’s ipod n fell asleep in the library.. Even had a funny dream where I was flying.. weird.. never had any encounters with flying before.quite cool feeling, might want to try out flying next time XD. No training today cause I really wanted to go home to just flop on the bed and like what sze min always say.. boom on the bed..haha. but in the end went with hong wei and eric to coronation to buy the publication stuff.. but as usual ended up eating most of the time.. talking really crap and only managed to buy like a packet of colour paper in the end. And guess who I bumped into while we were eating the honey lemon dunno wad chicken rice (damn nice de! Must go try!!).. shao jian n yue qi(MY NEW MADE CRESCENT FRIEN!!) crescent rules man!! Haha.. then we had a very fun time staring at shao jian all the time until she was almost screaming out…don’t stare at me already LA!! Haha.. damn funny! Silly shao jian!

Well.. then went back to crescent (only ended up with me and sam ..sighs.. like usual..)..oh man.. I MISSED CRESCENT!!!! It was like so familiar to walk up that so unsteep slope.. there were like quite a few changes… there’s a new guardhouse!! Haha so cool la.. but that means its harder to smuggle food from mobile le. Then me and sam had a tour around the school and went back to our old class.4C2!!!! the vase of flowers and peacock feathers still there!! OH MAN!!! It was like so home la.. then the new ppl added GREEN curtains to our changing room. BRONTE all e way!! How I miss the class.. the atmosphere.. the fun.. laughter.. all the great times that I had in crescent!! I sat back at my old chair, my old position. I could just picture all the lessons we had…ms ang with her super speed in amaths, in which we still managed to catch up. Mr lee with his super slow speed, in which we could still catch up in the end. Mrs yip with her talk to the board only, mrs chia with her jump here and there chapters, mr lim with his lip licking and deep voice that would vibrate e floor when he sings, mdm lim with her Chinese proverbs, ms lau with her wonderfulness in everything, ms goh with her drama… all the teachers have had a deep impact on me.. I miss them there for us.thank you all so much for giving such great lessons and memories for us!!!

Then the grand finale for the day.. I was just a very tired soul wandering around my room without the light, trying to find my way to the bed.. then I didn’t realize my table was shifted.. so being such a goofball, I was kicking around in the dark then WHAM! My foot kicked against the bloody table and PAIN LA!!!! The big toe nail was like cracked and the skin around it cut. DAMN IT! such a careful person I am la.. just hope it heals before I bleed to death……URGH!..

nts womans kayaking

2006-05-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

I lost to myself

I tried my best, pushed my hardest. But I guess that’s not enough. Will power is what I lack I think. i am so sorry lina. I pulled you down, I disappointed the faith you had in me.

Thank you so much dawn for being there for me. though we didn’t do as well as expected, but I really felt you today. I’ll never forget this race.

Im just a tired exhausted person today.

to all nj canoeists.. u all did damn well today!! really proud of u all XD
hey crescent canoeist!! good job man!! really proud of you all today!!

i'm nervous

2006-05-13T19:40:00.000+08:00

had a nightmare today... i woke up at 9 and realised that i was late for the nats woman's kayaking.. i rushed all the way to macritchie..but my event was over and both my events were DQed. everyone blamed me for waking up late.. then i really woke up..heng ah. thankfully it was just a nightmare...

oh gosh.. i'm nervous.. this is my 1st canoe race for the year.. i can do it.. i have to.. it's not as if i never raced before, but i just hate this feeling in my stomach. its like u wanna do something to forget about it.. but your fingers just doesnt want to stop moving. i need to relax!...

the whole team can do it tomorrow.. i just know it. we must not give up no matter what and consistence all the way.

Dawn, it shall be our last race together tomorrow. no matter what happens i will push my hardest. pull for each other ok? we can do it! 1000 may be a bit longer than 500, but no matter what, we must NEVER drop power, consistent all the way. we must bear with the pain, it will only be shortlived and i will be there just as you are always there for me.. rest well today.. jia you! tiggers unite XD.sijing always no matter what

Lina, its our first race together.. even though we have never partnered each other before, but there is always a first time. we may not be accustomed to each other's strokes, but i will put in my full effort in our race. 500m.. we can do this together! JIA YOU!!!

heart and soul go the distance. jia you everyone!

K2 gals outing!!!! XDXDXDXDXD

2006-05-12T18:14:00.001+08:00

TOOK K2 WITH VICTORIA TODAY!!! haha it came out as such a shock man..haha.but i was pretty upset that i coulnt get to row with dawn for the last time before nats woman kayaking..but it was a totally new experience with my dearest vic!! the 1000,500 sets were not bad, we pushed very hard and could tail debbie n jas boat(but still need to work very hard to catch up)..but oh man.. we capped at the end while we finished a 250 sprint.. i was so sad la.. WHY??i am so sorry Vic... i know i am not a very stable back rower.. and our paddle was sucked in and i must apologise to all the K2 gals cause of us u all haf to do 100 pushups.. but i promise to put in my full concentration next time and not cap at all was feeling pretty demoralised after that..but the K2 outing cheered me up TONS!! haha we like had impromptu and finally decided to go ledo to eat at subway XD.. me,dawn ,corrine,vic,constance, debbie, jas n sok joo sat frm like 10 plus all the way until 2.30 crapping and talking the whole time..haha . it was a really good time to bond together man.. i just wished that we could have stayed longer man..haha.oh and i bumped into a few crescent ppl(long time no see them le) and miraculously Hao wen..haha he was like wearing the same black shirt at the s14 outing last time.. yea.. then it was neos time!! walked over to cine to take neos ( bumped into a lot of nj ppl haha) and it was homecoming and sleeping for me. corrine had to meet her sis la.. damn wasted.. really wanted to see both of them together but she shooed me home..oh man.. wished i could see both of them together haha.. so cool to have twins man..haha.. then we were talking about xavier n his non identical twin.. then i added that matthew would be my non identical twin cos born on same day..haha dawn was like.. u like tat then i have a lot of non identical twins le..haha.. nationals woman kayaking coming le.. everyone must jia you ok?? no matter what must jian chi dao di!! GAMBATEH!!!! XD

and a special message to SABU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIR GUANO!! hope ur day is as unshitty(learnt it frm u XD) for once in your life.. must win on sunday k?? trash all e other schools.. njc canoeing can do it..heart n sould go e dist.. have a blasting 17th birthday and happy watching ur1st nc16 movie!! love loads SIJING

packed too tight man!

2006-05-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

Training was cancelled today cos too many people couln’t make it. it was supposed to be my mugging day la. Me and szemin was like..eh later wanna study at canoe table until 7 plus anot? It was damn funny la can.. both of us in the end went out.. was planning to watch MI3 with shao jian and choon yee, then I was just about to msg sze but she msged me at that exact time saying that she going out with her mum..haha! damn funny la. Me and shitface was laughing over that for like ages… in the end I didn’t manage to watch the movie..sighs.. I never get the chance to go out much nowadays with training and studying..was just telling ms lim how packed life is everyday. She agrees too..she was like..i wanted to go watch that hedgehog movie some time.. I think its very funny and cute( my eyes popped la!) ms lim is like still a child lor..haha.she so cute la!!.. anyway.. continuation of my unable to watch MI3 movie.. well in the end me shao jian and choon yee had to go all the way to some ulu pasir panjang place to collect the 11 boxes of sponsored pasta.. we thought it was gonna be HUGE la.. in the end come out so puny and could fit so nicly in shao jian’s boot and still got space to fit me inside la.. but oh man.. we took SO much pains in finding that bloody place!! Shao jian’s mum took 30 min to locate that area ( in which me n choon yee slept through everything..haha) then I realized it was like so near my house.. but actually it was not supposed to.. so shao jian’s mum went around the west coast area a few times.. I was like.. why not go my place and get the street directory? Then shao jian that wonderful woman said.. I have in the car (went to take it out) but I dunno how to read it.. ( I almost slapped my head la!!).. so me being the very pro map reader..took out the directory and went to study it. it was messy at first but clever ppl adaptto things fast man (XD) haha.. so under my brilliance.. we only got lost once and we finally managed to find that WONDERFUL place before 5.. that adventure over liao.. was thinking of going home to sleep and mug a bit but sam called and asked to go jurong point to mug n eat dinner with min. so I always being the damn on person agreed( which was a stupid move) cos I had to wait for both of them for 1 hr and in the end venue changed to jurong east entertainment center. I called sam like 13 times and she never reply la. Was DAMN pissed off man!and what made my day even more miserable was to bump into YEO HAIKAL and david and their friend at long johns,where I kana suaned and made to look dumb by STUPID haikal!! ( idiot guy.. better not let me see him in school or else I’ll whack him so hard he flies to Africa with his ass stuck up some oil refining center).. they went pooling in e end.. wanted to join while waiting 4 sam and min but was not er.. what they call it..civilized(wearing home clothes) yea..so there I was eating jollybean pancake waiting for like 30 min ..stoning like an idiot..before they finally arrived! Gosh! Stayed up until like 10 plus then finally HOME!! SLEEP!!! Such a hiong day man.. and now I am too excited to sleep cos tomorrow got k2 girls outing!! YAH!!!! Can’t wait!!! Gonna be a blast man!! It would be like the t1 girls outing and better!=)

Today during morning study session while they passed down the training sign up sheet for next week, I turned and shouted “ DAWN! What days you training next week?” then Sze min said “ you not raining anymore with Dawn next week already wad..” at that particular point I suddenly felt so lost and saddened.. it was a feeling I never had before. I don’t know whether to feel happy that I can finally feel something I never felt before or to be sad…..

ahem.. because of the nagging of some ppl, i shall blog a bit more of the meetin with sam n min.. so we um went to the library to like mug a bit( in which i did 1 qn of maths. sam did enzymes.min..god noes wad she was doin..) then went to eat at the food court and talked too much crap haha. oh before that..me and sam were LAUGHING out heads off cos of all the SUDDEn changes in min HAHAHAH eg.. her specs.. pencil box HAHAHA.. then we laughed like crap cos of the pics in sam's phone.. hahah rite sam XDXD.. yea.. ok .. so did not only blog about my pissed moments la k??

first entry in my new skin XDXD

2006-05-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

My blogskin so fun la can.haha. its like msn like that. PHEW! Finally did up my blog. Been like a thousand gazillion years since I changed my skin and start to fully write up. Quite sad come to think of it. 5 months passed la, and all the wonderful memories are there in my mind somewhere.. but I just can’t seem to recall. Sometimes I wonder if I have short term memory loss. I really wanna hold on to all the fun and laughter that I experienced..but it all seems to be just hallucinations. Did I dream them? Gosh.. the entry seems to sound damn emotional la..haha.. not me man..ok.. back to crap time. Well yeah.. I was supposed to stay back to finish up my chem. Bonding on er.. mon.. but kinda ended up doing up the blog….i think black is such a cool colour.. so mysterious la XD like me..muahaha..aniwae.. today was a long last waiting day!! Finally got to train after 3 days!! Yah!! Blast the stupid flu..stupid cough.. stupid sore throat..hope they go away before the nat woman kayaking man.. PLEASE !! took k1 today, everything rocked except the sprinting part. I damn sad la can.. stupid stupid stupid! Why can’t I still balance on the boat?!!#%%^&*^% ARGH!!!! Was doing just fine before the starting line.. but after vivien shouted Go.. the boat seemed to like have a mind on its own. The direction was like off n so was the balance. I NEED TO CONTROL THE BOAT NOT E OTHER WAY ROUND!gosh! I gotta get that straight into my head!! So once again I was like the last for the sprints. Damn demoralizing la… depression… just hope that I would quickly improve soon.

This part below is dedicated to my WONDERFUL partner DAWN
And I am gonna miss my dear Dawn LOTS! 101% confirm wont get to row with her no more after nat woman kayaking.. 4 months n a bit more of trainings together. Its really a long time.. the longest partner ever since the starting of the year. All the sweat, blood n hardships that we have suffered together.. I AM GONNA MISS U DAWN!! SOBS.. I don’t like changes even though they are for the better.. I just wanna tell u dawn that even though I am not a very strong back rower.. so much weaker than the other senior back rowers.. but you have pushed me hard during training and for that I really thank you thousands.you taught me never to give up no matter how much pain we suffered together. I can still remember all those tough trainings that we lagged behind the other k2s, but we never gave up.. my whole body was aching and in so much pain.. but we didn’t give up. We just cried our way through the pain and continued to whack against all odds. Our balance was the main problem.. but we managed to overcome that.. even on an apache we could whack. I was like so blasting happy during the week we took apache cos we could balance on it.. the feeling was great man!! Throughout the 28k of the canoe marathon we encouraged one another and fought through the challenges against us.. even though u may not know it..i just wanted you to know that without you there..it would be very hard for me to complete the race.. it was the longest time I rowed nonstop ..and without your small figure(dun kill me 4 tat k?XD) in front of me for encouragement.. I wouldn’t have so much determination to go on..remember what u wrote to me? u said ur senior once told you that the most practical and effective way of encouragement is to put in POWER and pull as hard as you can for your partner.. I’ll remember that always and pass it on.....I’ll cherish all those trainings with you..i’ll learn from our mistakes and improve from them.. no matter what happens and what the line up is.. I just wanna you to know that the past 5 months of training with you would be an experience I would never forget.. it would be a once in a lifetime thing that I would cherish and keep with me forever.. the national woman’s kayaking would be our last race.. we can do it dawn.. I am gonna put my 101% effort in it. WE CAN DO IT!!! I will race and pia until the end.. we shall not give up.. consistent all the way!!! Like wad u said.. dun be afraid of the pain.. it will come.. but it will definitely go away.. this I shall remember especially during the 1000m race.. !! WE CAN DO IT DAWN!! The final grand finale of our partnership XD!! Heart n soul go e distance !! LOVE, SIJING ALWAYS!!!!

my blog is alive!!! cool huh?!

2006-04-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

whao... been like thousand of years since i blogged man. the past few months have been like a blur man. had so much fun and laughter that i didn't even realise it.oh man. how i miss those carefee days without any stress in life.i'll blog about the past one fine day haha but god knows when that would be. TODAY WAS ELECTION DAY!! haha. quite borin to tell the truth.butoh man.. it was so fun la... took thousands of pictures with the class. haha me val simna eunice n yi wen even went to the toilet near the canteen to take mtv videos and pictures. damn cool can?! i'll upload one fine day also.then crapped the entire time during the talks.was planning on such a cool outing la. strategising on every single move. was at first planning to eat at seoul garden thanks to naraen's gd idea.. then planned to go kap.. then was subway..haha. but in the end all e plans were ruined..sighs wanted to climb gate.but met ms lim at the canteen la.she threatened to ban me frm training frm one week..sighs.plan a b n c all failed. so our whole class slack in our class and took more pics.haha then told ghosts stories. stupid eric,said got a lot of stories n in e end onli got like 1..IDIOTIC!..well yea.. then training.. OMG!!!! SOBS I AM SO SAD CAN!! me n dawn's boat were very slowla..i whacked till i couldhave cried man..but it was like a STONE! sighs.. maybe i am not working hard enough.. maybei should self train a bit more. but oh man.. i was so demoralized can.. really hope training would be better tomorrow..and i now fully LOVES TIGER!!! truley appreciated.... doubleonothing

TRYING

2005-12-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

trying out:) hee dunno if it works..

2005-03-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

IST DAY OF THE FINALS¡¡¡¡¡. Hui Qin and Prasana¡¯s race was da first one.. we all cheered like mad for them especially when one of the k2¡¯s capsized at da Bermuda line¡ they were like soooo focused and paddled even faster as we cheered but in da end the also capped at da Bermuda line.. hui qin looked so pissed off and had a really black face.. prasana was like sooo disappointed lar.. but e still luff them no matter wad they do!! J then was Jia Yi and Amanda¡¯s race.. ( wah! I didn¡¯t get to watch jia yi race cause mine was like 2 events after hers!) but I did manage to see them start and I waved to jia yi but I dun think she saw..L.. I onli knew their results when I was on shore after da race.. jia yi got 4th ( same as me!!) and Amanda got 5th.. jia yi was obviously disappointed lar..( though she di not show it.. but I was really happy 4 her.. no matter wad she got! Hehe..) but she was veri calm n cool ( unlike me..) haiz.. but no matter wad.. I am still very proud for both of them..! THEN!! Was my race.. hai¡ dun really want to talk bout it¡ the guy that gave instructions was SOOO dammit blur lar¡ cause there 7 boats instead of6 and he asked all of us to go forward a boey(which I onli realized at the end of the race..).. n I kept on wondering y charlotte kept on entering my lane.. haiz.. when that stupid fellow pressed that beeper thingy.. everyone started to paddle at the same time n on one was leading.. then at da 750 mark.. 1 second everyone was together da next second the lane 1 n 2 n 7 gals were like ZOOOOOMING ahead of all of us.. I kept fighting wif da bedok green beside me but at the 500 m mark she suddenly slowed down.. ( I heard cheerings u noe!!) n I zoomed¡ but da gal who got disqualified at da 500 m race.. da temasek gal was gaining speed n I was like sooo damn afraid that she would beat me lar.. but in the end I beat her by a miserable 1 sec¡ I was like almost 20 seconds after da 3rd person.. ( so sad..) but oh well.. I did my best¡ hai.. onli hope that I can win something 2moro¡. Then it was siti n tabi and wanmei n shu yun¡¯s race ( which I did not manage to see¡) but I was REALLY happy for shu yun n wanmei cuse the got THIRD!!!! They broke da crescent history of winning da 1t trophy!! Haha! Siti n tabi got 4th.. and they were really sad.. but we are all still veri proud of them n they still got another chance 2moro at da 500m race!! Woohoo!! Go crescent!! J haha.. but I still kinda sad cause I didn¡¯t manage to win¡.. (gloom..) but aniwae.. good luck to all those that have da race 2morrow!!!!p.s. I AM MENTIONING CHOO JIA YI AND HOPE THAT SHE WOULD BE ABLE TO GET A FOOT MASSAGE 2DAE!! Doubleonothing

2005-03-17T22:12:00.001+08:00

GOD!! I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!!! THERE IS A T1-1000 M FINAL ON SAT!! ARGH!! AND I AM NOT PREPARED AT ALL!!!!!!!!!! AND I CANNOT CONTACT CHARLOTTE AND ASK HER TO COME DOWN 4 TRAINING!! CHARLOTTE!! WHERE R U????????????? doubleOnothing

2005-03-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

LALALALALA!!!! hahahah!!!! me happy happy 2dae!!!!!!! hahahahhohohohoheeeheeeheeeheeehehehehehe!!!!..... wadeva... damn!! got LOTZ of hmwk 2dae!! argh!!! and oh by da way.. thanks heidy 4 listening to my COMPLAINS n WOES!! i not that stressliao!! haha!!... and i am not mentioning da person who said i always mention OK??? training was kinda tough 2dae.. haiz... damn scared 4 da competitions.. but muz FOCUS and BE DETERMINED.... ouch.. my teeth are hurting.. is there such a thing called teeth reumatism???( wrong spelling...) doubleOnothing

2005-03-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

*Training was NOT that fun today.. Jane was sooooooo damn fast lar..... argh!!!!! i feel as i am deproving!!!!!! damn!! must start to work harder!! ARGH!!! COMPETITION IS LIKE SO NEAR LAR!!!!....... and to make matters worse i am feeling pressurized and not at all like me sometimes!! damn!!!! wad is the matter with mE?????????? SAM!!!!!! U NEVAGIMME DA THUMBDRIVE!!!!! NOW HAF TO WAIT TILL SCHOOL REOPEN!! ARGH!!!! and i got SOOOOO much hmwk neva do... ARGH!!!!... doubleOnothing

happie birthday jia yi:)

2005-03-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

SPECIAL MESSAGE TO THE BIRTHAY GAL CHOO JIA YI!!!!!! Juz wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAE JIA YI!!!! HAHA U R OLDER NOW!!! This msg is gonna be kinda mushy.. but you¡¯ll have to read it so there!! Can¡¯t remember when we met.. but at d sec 4 leaving party last year we kinda talked a lot and hit off¡ then became CLOSE FRIENDS( since you said so urself hrmph!!) well aniwae.. I relly found u veri funny and interesting then!! Haha!! And I still do!! I like you 4 a lot of things and I wanna say some of it¡ wait argh.. I go check the dictionary¡ you¡¯re funny, imaginative, stupid, extremely lame, super idiotic, very down to earth, kind compassionate( sometimes), veri nice, practical, encouraging, veri engrossed, determined, brave, veri dense, idi face, veri straight, aiya.. can liao lar¡.. my hand pain liao.. haha!! I think sometimes I annoy u and irritate u a lot.. but u dun haf to always bite half my head off when I ask something¡ but I think I kinda used to it liao.. if u r like SOOO nice to me one dae I¡¯ll be like so damn it surprised¡ do u noe that u¡¯re da onli one who bullies me?? (hmrph..) haha.. but aniwae.. I always dun take MUCH of it to heart as u SOMETIMES apologise afterwards¡ but ur mood really changes suddenly¡ u should next time tell me when ur mood changes lar.. then I noe when to do wad lar.. hahaha!!! Juz joking .. J You must strive hard for the finals k??? will be cheering 4 u!! hope al of us WIN!!! GO CRESCENT!!! WOOHOO!!! I think this msg is like soooooo long lar.. took me ever so long to write it lor¡ somemore now the virus still in my com n I cannot use msn.. hai.. sad!! How was ur day?? Got go anywhere??or stay home n do ur hmwk da whole dae?? Haha!!! Just hope that you enjoyed your birthday and hope that we get to meet each other often after my O¡¯levels!! I don¡¯t 4get my friends easily you noe.. so you¡¯ll have to meet me often and I shall enjoy torturing you!! Haha!!! J have a happy birthday again!!!!! Cheers!!! ( I gotta bad news.. I still haven¡¯t buy ur prezz yet !! but I¡¯ll buy it 2morrow!! haha!!) lurve you loads!! Ur bro and best pal sijing!! doubleOnothing

2005-03-10T19:56:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!! TODAE IS DEFINITELY NOT MY DAY!!!! fist i get my feet sliced OPEN by the BLOODY barnicles at kallang... then i almost fell n put my hand on the STUPIDbarnicles n they got sliced open TOO!!! ARGH!! how am i to paddle at da competition??????????????? then coach LAUGHS and tell me to hurry up when i am obviously in PAIN and then prasana applied TOO MUCH force on my leg and it bled TOOOOOO much... then on da way home.. i realised that my shoe n skirt wason pras car and a BIG BLOODY guy stepped on my foot while boarding da bus and futhermore i was chatting wif pei zheng on da phone n i missed my stop.... STUPID STUPID!!! ARGH!..... wad a beautiful day this is.. hai.... now trying to type wif my hands dripping wif blood n i hope that da CHOO JIA YI had better make this incident more BLOODY then ever!!..... at least she was COMPASSIONATE enough to ask about mua foot............ doubleOnothing

2005-03-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

juz gotta new board after my doodle board got fully wiped out!!! dammit!! so much homework today!! argh!!!!!!!!! still have to go for the learning journey on fri nite till sat morning then later haf to go kallang and cheer 4 all those competing!! Good LUCK!!! (p.s. i am still waiting 4 choo jia yi's bdae wish to enter my ear) (doubleonothing)

2005-02-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!!! ARDG!! I GOT IN THE FINALS!!!! i was like soooo scared during the race lar... was VISUALISING da race yesterday da whole day lor.... sheeeeeesh.... my whole body felt like jelly when the race stared.. i wasn't even ready yet lar... the that guy "POOT" that stupid beeper thingy.. nearly burst my eardrums... GOD!! the temasek gal was really nice lor.. beat me by a few milliseconds n waited 4 me at the end of the race.. i was like soooooo sad and unhappy.. and she waited 4 me and smiled.. but in the end ms ang told me tht she got disqualified cause she went through da wrong lane...I WAS SOO HAPPY!! but felt sad 4 da poor gal lar.. she musta being soo sad lor..... por thing... now i am like a RED boiled lobster..... my whole body feelslike it is on fire and likeit is gonna peel staight NOW!!! argh!!!.... gotta sore throut from cheering on so many ppl.. ( including other schools..) aren't we such nice ppl??? haha... we even cheered for the BOYS!!! can you believe that?? actually grace started it.. and for once jia yi cheered 4 da BOYS!!!! haha!!.....damn!! my sis is bothering me now... hai.... have to do my hmwk liao.... (and it is one more daeto someone's b-dae...) donbleOnothing

2005-02-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

2005-02-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

I CANNOT believe it... i GOT LOCKED IN SCHOOL RIGHT AFTER THE CHINESE NEW YEAR CELEBRATIONS!!!!! ARGH!!! Me, Khal, siti, xiao min, sam and joee n miss shervon got locked in school after staying in the com lab for like 2 hrs.. at 1.15... then walk out and viola!!.. nobody in sight and the corridoors are locked.... SHEESH!!! wunnerful way to begin our chinese new year... but it was kinda fun actually... haha miss shervon kept on telling us not to jump off.... like as if we would.. we aren't that stupid!!!!got ladders around wad.....!!!! later then shouted for help at the workers at the construction site...waited like half an hour and in the end we were scolded by the person who helped us open the door thingy... sheesh.. and the BEST thing is that we have to write a report on it...!! WONDERFUL SURPRISE!! [ doubleOnothing]

2005-02-08T18:33:00.000+08:00

Nothing better to do now... stuck at the school com lab after the chinese new year celebrations...... doing the bio project thingy.. hai... haha :):):) YAH!!!!! OUR CLASS WON THE CHINESE NEW YEAR DECORATIONS!!!!!! WOOHOOO!!!!!! haha!! Amira was SOOO HAPPY!!!! grabbed my hand soo tight ... now still hurst a bit... :) doing the bio on heroin now.... sounds FUN!!?? shheeeessshh.. chinese new year is gonna be SUCH a BORE!!!!... no one coming over to my house... our friends all overseas..... and only me stuck in singapore...... sad.. hopefully i get to go SOMEWHERE during the chinese new year.... the performance was kinda cute 2dae.. especially the rubber gal.. WOW!!! her body can like twist any any angle lor... damn.. she must not be human... haha.. poor sobana sick 2dae... cannot get the choco. coins that joee gave out!! :):) enough crapping.. muz start doing the bio project [ doubleOnothing]

MuA fiRSt blOG!!!!

2005-02-05T17:40:00.000+08:00

i finally got a blog!! haha.. must thank CHOO jia yi for helping me in it.. and i just dread the day of having to carry myself to jia yi's classroom(2C2) for her to help me create a wan mei de blog.. haha.. training was fun 2dae.. though i just HATE the running.. die liao.. on monday got cross country.... ( hopefully i dun fall AGAIN).. went to macs for lunch.. i should seriously control my diet... and also money.. now i owe another person ( Y.J.) money... sigh..dunno when can pay back all the debts... damn it.. got so much homework... still have to call xiao min for the chinese compo...why do teachers torture us so??... yah.. can't wait to go horse back riding...!! my first time..!!!!!!! haha.. hope my parents would bring me to sentosa nxt week to go RIDING!! haha... signing off now..:) cheers!! [doubleOnothing]